My Pain and Sufferings

Him (pt. 3)

You won my heart without trying.

And you shattered it without knowing.

But I still loved you with all the pieces.

I loved you, so much.

But it hurts when criticize me harshly when you don't even know half of the things I went trough.

All of the things I've done.

All the things I was forced to do.

All the times I gave into the dark.

All the tears I shed.

And all the silent cries for help I let out at night.

And I finally reached my limit.

I let my tears fall in front of you.

I couldn't hold them back anymore.

You asked why I was crying.

You asked me to stop.

"It hurts me when I see you like this.." he said.

I just smiled at him. I told him..

"It's okay.. I'm used to it."

But I wanted to tell him everything.

All my burden, and all my secrets.

But I can't.

I'm not brave enough I guess..

I keep tearing myself apart.

To keep the ones I love whole.

It's not fair that I have to go trough this alone.

But no one can truly understand me.

I hide all my sorrows.

Forcing endless smiles.

Way past my limits.

I was already broken.

Why did you have to break me more?

Once you treated me like I'm your everything.

You loved me.

You brought colors into my world.

You made it more vibrant.

You treated me like a queen.

So I treated you like a king.

But then you suddenly stopped.

You acted like you don't care.

You say you do, but you act like you don't give a shit about me.

You started treating me like I'm a game.

Toying around with my heart.

If you want to treat me like a game.

Then I'll show you how it's played.