My Pain and Sufferings

The Argument

We've had many arguments before.

Yet none like this.

He said he didn't mean it.

He said he's sorry.

He begged me to forgive him.

And this time..

I replied to him with silence.

I didn't say anything.

I didn't show any emotion.

I wanted him to feel what I was feeling.

I didn't want to make anyone else feel what I felt..

But I don't want to be the only one bearing the pain.

It's too much.

But why can't I stop loving him?

Why can't I stop waiting?

I can't.

I don't even know why.

The reasons lie in the bottom of my heart.

Unknown to me.

It's just something about him.

His smile.

His voice.

His scent.

His love.

The way he says my name.

I couldn't leave him.

I couldn't move on.

It took every last piece of my being to continue ignoring him like this.

If he really loves me, he will tell me he's sorry in person, not trough a freaking text message.. right?

Will he have the guts to do it?

It's all up to him now.

I'm tired of getting hurt.

Goddammmit...

Screw love..

I give up..