My Pain and Sufferings

Him (pt. 2)

The fog clears away.

The sun rays pierced trough the clouds.

The sky turned into a warm shade of pink.

The rain has stopped.

Yet my tears continued to fall.

I sighed and started walking.

Not even knowing where my feet will take me.

My thoughts drifted to you.

I glanced at my phone.

6.23 PM

You're probably still playing your stupid game.

A few hours later I found myself walking trough an empty field.

The sky was already dark.

I sat down on the wet grass, and felt the cold wind brushing against my face.

I accepted the fact that you will never know all the sacrifices I've made for you.

And I looked up into the sky.

Why can't I ever be satisfied with what I have?

Instead I look for the things I can't ever have.

Acceptance.

Loyalty.

Even your heart.

I could never reach them.

Like these beautiful stars.

Even though we can see it, it's completely out of reach.

Every thing I have done, it's all useless.

Yet why won't I stop waiting for you?

Why can't I move on?

Why do I still love you?

After all of the pain you've put me trough...

And even though you say that you love me, you won't even stop playing your stupid fucking games to talk to me.

You choose your friends over me.

You choose your games over me.

You choose your heart over mine.

How could you do this to me?

How did you even win my heart so easily, without even trying?

It doesn't matter what I do at this point, it's useless.

I'm tired of getting hurt.

But I can't stop loving you.

You are the only one who I have ever truly loved.

But do you really feel the same way?

I don't think I'll ever know.

But if you ever need me, just call out my name.

I will always be there for you.

Because you already have my heart.

And I will never stop loving you.

Forever.

No matter what.