"Are you sure we should be doing this?" asked the girl. Her short pixie cut brown hair. Her eyes big, bottom lip poked out. She started to giggle.
" We agreed to this right. We can screw around. She won't even know." replied Brendan. Nibbling gently on her neck.
I could feel my tears brimming in my eyes, but none fell. I couldn't let them. I would just burst out in tears and he'd know I was there.
" Um ...who's the girl on your phone?" she asked. Brendan whipped his head up, to see my angry face on his screen.
" T-toni!" he yelled. I gave him the bird and turned off the chat. I grabbed my phone and threw it. I was angry at him and myself. How could I be so stupid and how could he be such an ass?
I felt one of my tears drip on my sweater. I heard my phone vibrate a dozen of times. I just continued to ignore it while I stared at my wall. Just thinking. Thinking what would've happened if I broke up with him when I had the chance. Before I started falling for him again.
What would've happened if he didn't cheat? If I wasnt even in this town. Drama is always around me.
I grabbed a box of chocolates, walking outside. I stuffed tons of chocolate in my mouth. Nearly death with them. "Happy Valentines Day to me." I whispered.
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I looked at my phone. 124 missed calls. 130 unread text messages. I read it over and as I walked into school. Ignoring the questions:
" Whats wrong?"
" Are you okay?"
" What happened?"
" Do you wanna talk?"
But I just continued to brush past them. I walked into my class. I did the whole black look with my black combat boots, black jeans, black leather jacket, and a black Pierce the Viel t-shirt. I slumped in my desk, looking at my phone. It rang, and I answered it to get it over with. I know, I'm in class but not many people were even in here.
" Hello?" I asked.
" Hey baby," said Brendan. Why is he so happy.
" Why are you being so nonchalant about this?" I asked. I could barely even breath.
" Let me just say, I think this was the best way for you to find out about this. I was going to ask, you know if I could have sex with the girl, but still date you." he said normal. What!?
" Um..I-I-I-"
" Listen baby, you weren't giving me action. If I was known for banging the new girl in school that plays hard to get, I'd get so known. You were like a new chapter added to my story. I've banged all types of girls, and you were the flavor lollipop I hadn't yet tasted." he replied, interrupting me.
" But you acted a-as if y-you cared," I stuttered. My tears threatened to fall.
" Yeah I put in a lot of work. You're truly a bitch Toni for making me wait this long. I mean, why wait to damn long babe? To be truthfull, I was actually going to screw you, treat you like shit, and then you'd break up with me. I was even coming to town this weekend to you know do it with you. But I don't know do you still want to?"
" I don't undertsnad," I whispered.
" You understand crystal clear sweetheart. You were nothing. I was using you. All the things I said were lies. I'm sorry I wasn't your ideal first boyfriend. Sometimes, the world works in these mysterious ways. I think that we might as well just e-"
I hung up the phone and started crying, causing everyone to look at me. I don't even know how to explain how I'm feeling right now. I was like a set up.
" Toni, are you alright?" asked the teacher.
" I-I'm sorry. May I l-leave p-please?" I blubbered. She nodded worryingly. I jumped out of my seat, grabbing my things quickly. I ran out of the classroom. I ran down the halls, and I ran past the football field. I ran into the woods. I didn't know where I was going. I was cold, because of the snow. I didn't even know what oart of the woods I was in. I could barely see anything past the tears and thoughts through my head.
" Toni!" yelled I voice. I ignored it. " Toni!"
I was suddenly grabbed, and pulled into someone's chest. I looked up to see Elliot. He wiped my tears, and held me close.
" Toni, what the fuck are you doing?" he asked. " I saw you running past the class crying and I followed you here. You have some strong lungs, because you ran far. You almost ran off this cliff."
I looked over and saw the cliff and rocks at the bottom. I could've died. I wiped my tears, as he rocked me in his arms.
" Are you alright?" he asked. I looked up at him blankly.
" What if everything else is a lie?" I replied. " Who else could be using me or lying to my face. Filling my head with lies?" He stared at me astonished. Opening his mouth, but no words came out. " I gotta go. I'll tell you later alright."
I stood up and walked away, brushing some snow off of me. I forgot to grab my coat when I walked in here.
" Toni, but-" he yelled. But I interrupted.
" Trust me. I just need to be alone and breath alright. I need everything to sink in." I told him. I began walking again.
" Toni, you know everyone's not out to get you. I know you're scared of everything. The world is a crazy ,fucked up place. Sometime's we're going to deal with it. Or move on. What ever happened I'm sorry, but maybe it can be a lesson for you." he said behind me. I continued walking, letting his words sink in.
I walked back into the building, sitting in the bathroom floor. I just thought about all the bad things. Everything. Until my next class.
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"Hey Tonic, you sure you're alright? You haven't touched your lunch. That never happens," giggled Maggie. But I know Mags too well, so I know that laugh was a fake. She knows I'm upset. She saw me crying in class.
I gave her a look, saying Id tell her later. She nodded and turned to talk to Zayne. I looked over at Jax, who was looking at me sternly.
" You. Me. Car. Now." he mouthed. I nodded, slipping away from the table.
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