The way you look at me // Tarjei Sandvik Moe

5

Studying with Tarjei wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I thought it would be really awkward and weird but he was actually really quick to get me out of me shell and he's really easy to talk to! I can really see myself falling for him... hard.

I sit down in front of my biology class and decide to look through my Facebook.. okay i'll be honest, i'm actually just going to go on Tarjei's page. A lot of girls have commented hears and stuff on his pictures which i admit makes me jealous that they feel comfortable doing so but i don't. I'm sure he knows he's really attractive and a lot of girls are head over heels for him and surely he really doesn't care but-

"heyy" i hear Anna say as she sits down next to me "what are you thinking of? you seem really deep into your thoughts" she laughs and takes her backpack off "uhh just the test" i lie straight to her face.

"oooh my god i forgot!" she says nervously and opens her textbook, hoping that will be enough to pass this important test. "you've literally had like 2 weeks to study" i laugh and give her my notes to help her out a bit "i went to see Chris last week" Chris is her boyfriend, i understand that maybe she didn't feel like taking up her books during her boyfriend visiting which btw lives like 5 years away from Oslo.

The teacher finally decides to arrive to his class Anna hands me my notebook and gives me a nervous smile which i laugh at.

After the test the teacher told us to just hang around until lunch time to hang around

"what's up with you and Tarjei?" Anna asks, catching me staring at him.

"uuh nothing i guess" i say and look at her, wishing she would just forget this because i'm not really ready to admit to myself that i like him.

"okay but just so you know" she starts, oh my god just shut up please and let me like this stupid boy in peace

"Tarjei is a total fuckboy, forget him" she continues and searches my face for a reaction

"why?"

"he dated my friend Ingrid for like a year and dumped her cause she wasn't ready to have sex" she says and looks at my expressionless face

"yeah but.. he dated this girl for a year that didn't want to have sex with him" i start defending this boy who i barely know "i mean, i would be insecure about myself and think that something was wrong with me" what am i doing? maybe he is a fuckboy but maybe i'm just finding a reason to like him.

"do what you want Lilly, he's hot" she smiles and i nod "if my friend wasn't his ex, i would be quick to get to know him if you know what i mean" we laugh and walk out the class

on our way to the cafeteria Tarjei stops me,

"hey" he smiles and looks down at his shoes, i smile at him

"last time was fun, really helped me out. thanks"

"no problem really, you really helped me with my Norwegian" i say and hug my textbooks tighter to stop my hands from shaking.

"yeah uh i was thinking" he starts but gets distracted when a couple of his friends walk by

"you were thinking?" Anna says impatiently, clearly excited to hear what he had to say after our conversation

"i was thinking if you wanted to do this again?" he finishes his question

"yeah, sure i would love to" i smile, trying to hide the fact how stupidly excited i am about this

"great, i'll uh text you later and we'll try to find a time. you have my number right?" he says and starts walking away, slowly jogging towards his friends when i nod and turn to Anna.

"oh my god! forget all that i said, he is so into you!" she laughs excited and we sit down on our usual table.

i sure hope so Anna, i sure hope so