Luck of the Draw

A Revolation

"I'll miss you."

Somehow I never expected those words to come out of her mouth and the weight of them hit me like a freight train. I had been thinking about it the whole time as I drove back home but stopped once I made my way through the front door.

Dinner consisted of mixed rice with grilled corn on the cob and tacos. My Mom, being the cook in our house had always made sure that we had a fresh wholesome meals to come home to. I guess you could say I was spoiled when it came to food because I was never one to eat much of the ready made microwave stuff. Not that I was complaining or anything.
At the table we always asked how each other how they're day had been going. When my Papa asked how my day was I couldn't help but smile at the thought of Lauren. Immediately those three words she had said to me earlier sprung into my brain. "I'll miss you."
"Today was actually a lot of fun." I said before taking a forkful of the rice before me.
"We got paired up for a project in my English class and I went over to a girls house where we finished it. Her name is Lauren. I think  both of you would like her." I said as I then gestured to my mother.

"Camila spending time outside in her own with kids her own age? Doesn't seem like you at all!" My Dad said jokingly.
I couldn't blame him for making such a comment. My parents had never really seen me hang out with kids outside of school. Basically I lived most of my life in school, or in my house.
"So what was the project on Camila?" My Mom asked.
"Oh it's on morality. It was our first unit we covered." I said before taking another bite of corn.
"Well sounds like a very interesting topic." My mother replied.

Soon all of us had finished dinner and were now scattered around the house doing our own thing. My mother as per usual was loading the dishwasher while my father went up to check for any last minute important emails. He was a lawyer so he sometimes had to run out and go to his office in town. Luckily tonight wasn't one of those nights as I heard him coming down the stairs and walking into the living room. Tonight was like any other night for me. I was relaxed and contented with what I had accomplished that day. It was already 9pm and finally felt I felt the sleepiness catching up on me

Making my way up the stairs to my bedroom I got my phone from the dresser and then proceeded to get all comfy in bed. Listening to music at night was like a routine for me. It allowed me to freely go over what had happened during the day but it also helped me from getting too stressed. Carefully I placed each earbud in and then hit play. The song that came on happened to be quite fitting.

That original feeling never went away
That's why I'm standing here today
Whoa oh, whoa oh
So many ups and downs and nothing's changed
That's why I know I'm here to stay
Whoa oh, whoa oh
So put your arms around me
And then stay there forever
Let it always be this way, you and me together
So put your arms around me
And I'll never let go
I know they're easy words to say but I mean it
More than ever
Yours is the kind of love
Makes nothing else feel good enough
And I'm never gonna give you up
Oh no, oh no

Sitting alone in my room I couldn't help it when thoughts of Lauren were now in the forefront of my brain. I could tell Lauren liked me and cherished our friendship even though it was still quite early. I loved the way she smiled whenever we were together, or the way I would catch her looking at me in my peripheral vision. And her laugh. There was something so special about her laugh. It simply had the power to make you forget what you had been thinking of before.  Ever since I first laid eyes on the girl I felt as if a part of my heart had caught fire. I identified as bisexual but no one had ever made me feel such feelings before. Lauren was a goddess of a girl, with bright green emeralds as eyes, and a mind and voice as crisp and pure as a winters night. Through each minute that we spent together my love for the girl grew and grew. She continued to surprise me with things and I simply loved it when we could talk forever about a topic as generic as food. In my mind I couldn't help but think about Lauren and how I felt about her. The once scattered pieces were now finally starting to come together.

I wanted to be more then just a friends with Lauren Jauregui.

I wanted her to be my girlfriend.

** Sorry for the short chapter guys! Originally it was longer however I decided to leave it at where it is currently because I felt like it ended more appropriately.

Song: Put Your Arms Around Me- Natasha Bedingfield