Blades and Bandages (Lashton) BOYXBOY

Chapter One

Lashton CH1

Ashton's POV

Why did I have to feel like this?

It was so wrong

But I couldn't help how I felt.

It took me so long to admit it, but now I'm ready to say it, "I Ashton Fletcher Irwin am in love with my best friend Lucas Robert Hemmings." There I said it after years of having feeling for my best friend I finally acknowledged them. "I FUCKING LOVE YOU LUKE!!!!" I shouted in the back of our tour bus. Just then the door opened. "Oh, hi Luke." I said in shock. "Hey...." He replied "How long have you been standing there?" I asked. "Long enough to have heard your confession." He said before walking out of the tour bus.

Wow, I really have fúckēd up this time.

~Luke's POV~

"I Ashton Fletcher Irwin am in love with my best friend Lucas Robert Hemmings."

No, no way. Ashton can't love me. He deserves so much more. He doesn't deserve me.

He shouted something else but I wasn't able to concentrate on what he was saying.

I opened the door and walked into the bunk bed part of the tour bus.

Oh, hi Luke." He said in shock. "Hey...." I replied "How long have you been standing there?" Ashton asked. "Long enough to have heard your confession."I said before walking out of the tour bus.

I couldn't let him waste his life with me. Yes I loved him back but he deserved someone far better than me.

I, Luke Hemmings, the fag who cuts his wrists. How could anyone truly love me. Ashton was just messing with me. He new I was standing outside the door.

I couldn't think straight. I started running and didn't stop for about half an hour. I had no idea where I was.

I took my phone out of my pocket and called Calum. I told him that I was lost and he told me to send him my location and he would pick me up.

Around 15 minutes later I saw Calum pull up in our managers car.

"Thanks mate" I said sitting into the passenger seat.

"No problem, care to tell me what your doing out here?" He asked with a concerned look.

"It's a long story Cal." I said looking out the window.

"It's only 5:30pm and we don't have a show tonight." He replied taking a left.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"We my friend are going to Starbucks." He said with a smile.

"Why?" I asked

"You nee to tell me whats going one, Luke please, you can't keep destroying yourself." Calum said taking my hand and lifting his sleeve.

"Cal" I said in shock. His arm way littered with scars both new and exciting old. "Why?" I asked. "When I was 14 things got tough, my parents split up, I realised I was bi, I had a hard life at school too. But thats not what we are here to talk about." He said pulling up outside Starbucks.

He grabbed my hand once more and I stopped myself from hissing.

"Come on, there won't be fans here?" He said with a smile.

We walked into Starbucks and I sat down at a table at the very back while Cal went up to the counter and ordered our drinks.

"So whats up?" Cal said when he came back with our drinks.