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Honesty

I'm afraid of who I am.
I don't want to be who I am.

I want more control over myself. My thoughts and actions are so easily clouded and manipulated by what I can only call my 'sub-conscience.'

I want to be a better person.
Someone who I like.

One day, I hope to be naturally confident in myself.

I hope I have that in me.

Right now, all I can do is watch myself from the future and regret my every mistake.

I make too many mistakes.
I don't deserve to be forgiven,

But believe my sorrow,
I beg you to forgive me.

Please
Please
Please

I want the cycle to end.
I don't want to hate the person in the mirror anymore.

It's my fault. It's all my fault.

I'm going to try to be the best I can. So I can make them proud.

But, in the end, I'll mess up again.
I'm a bad person,
And I don't have it in me to be good

- Mini