The winter formal is like 2 days away and I still haven't found the perfect dress
I want a dress that's long, and tight but not to tight, it foes around my baby bump but also hides it
Right Now Grayson is out with Ethan buying there tuxs and Jessica is helping Emily with her dress
And I'm helping Alex with her dress, She wanted a simple dress, but it have to be cute
She's also helping me with mine, but there's no luck finding me one, and I'm really getting stressed
And I guess she noticed, cause she stared to speak to me
"Hey have you guys thought of a name for the baby?" She asked
"No, we don't even know if its a boy or a girl" I say
"Well, you should start thinking about it, your next appointment your going to find out the sex of the baby" she says
"Yeah, I guess" I say rubbing my belly
"How bout we come up with a name when everybody comes back" Alex says
"Yeah" I say looking back down onto my phone I see the most perfect dress
"Oh My!" I say
"What?" Alex asked
"Look" I say showing her my phone
"That's so cute" she says
"And the price make it even more gorgeous" she says
"Alex I think this is the dress" I say smiling
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"Well, what are you waiting for send the link to Grayson" she says
"Already on it" I say sending the link
"Now that's over, let me help you with yours" I say putting my phone on her bed and standing up
•••
By the time we got Alex's dress and everything done, everybody came back, but the guys came back with pizza....
I ended up eating half a box of pizza, and I was so disgusted with myself I couldn't really hang with everyone
I laid in my bed, while I heard everyone else in living room, laughing , talking and singing happy birthday
I just closed the eyes and cried, I cried, because I should be out there, celebrating with my boyfriend
But instead I'm here crying, by myself in the dark
I could wipe off these tears, and I could get up and go back where everyone is
But I don't deserve the company of my friends and my boyfriend, I'm disgusting, I get fat, I'm selfish, I was so mean to Emily and she was going through so much with her father
I'm just a horrible person I don't deserve to have a baby.
••• Later
I soon cried myself asleep, then when Ethan and Emily left, and they cleaned up
Grayson came to bed, I hear him get dressed into his pajamas, but I didn't feel like getting up
"Hey" Grayson says sitting next to me
"Hi" I groaned still half asleep
"How you feeling?" He asked
"Fine" I mumbled
"Alright, go back to sleep" he kissed my forehead
I shut my eyes, he turned off the light and got back into the bed, and pulled me closer to him
