EatJin {JinKook} (completed)

11

I'm selfish.

Should I just off myself?

No. That's selfish. Think about everyone.

Thoughts race through Jungkook's mind as he slices his wrists to try and chase them away.

Eventually he just drops the razor and watches the blood drip out of the wounds. He smiles slightly as he begins to numb. He's numbing to everything.

"Jungkook!"
"Jungkook where are you!"

Taehyung and Jimin burst through the open apartment door. They get no response from the broken boy.

They share a look and rush to the bathroom.

"Shit. Jimin call the ambulance, I think he's lost too much blood."

Jimin dials for an ambulance.

They sit next to Jungkook in the back of the ambulance.

"Hyung?" Jungkook's voice is raspy.
Both Taehyung and Jimin lean down to hear him.
"Is he happy? Where he is? Is that why he won't come back?"
Taehyung and Jimin share a look and turn to answer Jungkook but he's out cold on the gurney.

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"Hi Jin hyung!" Jungkook's voice rings clear.
"I'm feeling better now...but I'm sorry..." he looks away from his lover and down at his bandaged wrists.
"I promised you all those months ago that I didn't harm myself anymore," he feels the Tears prick his eyes.
"I couldn't help it though, I felt so alone and overwhelmed...it felt so nice to be numb!"

Jungkook reaches down and takes Jin's hand in his own.

"I hope you wake up soon. I miss you a lot..." Jungkook squeezes Jin's hand.

And Jin squeezes back.

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I'm sorry that I can't fix you Jungkook. I hope that you're getting better slowly.

I'm holding the darkness at bay for you baby...I want to be back in your embrace right now, but it's not time yet.

I just need you to hang in there a little longer...fight the darkness with.

Listen to your other hyungs, all they want is for you to stay strong and get better...you can do it.

I believe in you.

I need you to believe in you.

I need you to believe in me.

I believe in me.

I see us all the time, in the future.
In a house together.
With children.
And happiness everywhere.

We can make it through. I promise.

I love you Jungkook.

Hang in there a little longer.

T•T T•T T•T

"The famous YouTuber EatJin a.k.a Kim Seokjin has been in a coma for 18 months. The doctors are saying his brain is picking up its activity, that this is possibly a signal that he's going to wake up soon."

"In other news, his boyfriend, Jeon Jungkook has tweeted that he's doing a lot better after his near suicide a few months ago. He's getting professional help and he's recovering slowly, but surely."

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"Hi hyung!"

Hi love

"I watched our favorite movie today!"

I wish I could've watched it with you

"I cried because I wanted to watch it with you..."

Don't cry

"I've been clean a whole month!"

That's good

"It's still hard sometimes but, but the doctors are saying that your body is waking up slowly!"

I can feel it too

"They say that you could wake up anytime now!"

I hope so

"Jimin hyung and I finished our final choreography for our examination! It looks really good!"

I'm sure it does

"If you're not awake by the time we have to perform, I'll ask Taehyung to film it for you okay?"

Okay

Jungkook reaches down to take Jin's hand.

I miss your warmth

Jungkook gives Jin's hand a long squeeze and pauses.

I love you

Jin squeezes Jungkook's hand back, tighter that Jungkook squeezes his.

"I'm glad your waking up!"

Me too Jungkook

Me too

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"How do cows laugh?" Taehyung says to the two boys in front of him. Jimin and Jungkook roll their eyes.
"They go Moohahahahahaha!" Taehyung falls into a fit of giggles at his lame joke.
"Why do I put up with you again?" Jimin says rolling his eyes at his boyfriend.
"Cause you love him hyung." Jungkook says simply and smiles at the two.
"Okay, I've got one!" Taehyung says after recovering.
"What did one wave say to the other?"
The other two just shrugged.
"Nothing. They waved!"
Jungkook face palms.

The room falls into a peaceful silence. Jungkook intertwines his fingers with Jin's and strokes his hand.

Jin's hand twitches and Jungkook smiles.

"What did the English book say to the math book?" Taehyung's voice breaks the silence.
"I don't know hyung! What?" Jungkook says turning away from Jin.

"You've got too many problems." Taehyung freezes with his mouth open.

Jimin and Jungkook swing their heads to the hospital bed.

Tears begin to steam down Jungkook's face as he takes in the sight before him.

"You're awake!"

A/n

It's a vvvv long chapter.

I tried.

Enjoy?
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P.s
The picture at the top was not edited. That was the actual color of the sky!!
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