Suicidal Pain

Scars

You may not see them, but that doesn't mean they're not there.

People are always saying that those scars are just cries for attention, but that's not true. I don't want attention from them at all. I don't like attention. That's why I hide them. Every time I take off my shirt and look at my sides, I see them.

I was so scared of getting attention by them that I thought I could hide them where stretch marks would be. But eventually you run out of space.

I ended up starting on my arm only because I couldn't get my sides where I was. I ended up tearing my skin with nothing but my nails. I was even being watched at the time but at the moment no one cared. I was glad no one did at the time. I didn't want to draw attention to myself but I didn't want to be overwhelmed with the emotional pain either.

I know it's not the best way to suppress feelings but it's all I've got. All I can do. All I know how to do. I've hurt so many people, I thought no one would care if I just hurt myself. Just one more person in the long list of people who've suffered because of me.

After all I've done

I deserve this pain