Suicidal Pain

smiles hide

All of those who can wear a crown
Ask me why I always frown

They ask "why don't you ever smile"
I say "i do, just not in a while"

When they try to ask me why
It just brings memories of why I want to die

People say "it's not the answer"
But then they say "no second chance either"

People aways think I'm strong
But they don't know how much they're wrong

They don't know the pain I feel
And they all think it isn't real

But the one day that I'm gone
No one will remember what I did wrong

No one will care because no one knows
This suicide pain that never shows

Because I always try to hide it
Always trying to win and fight it

But like I said I'm not that strong
And you can't tell me that I'm wrong

Because you don't know how I feel
And you don't know that it's real

So if one day you see me smile
Just know you won't see it for a while

Because I try to smile everyday
But by the end it goes away

My life is worth less than dirt
So why not leave before someone else is hurt

I didn't want this but I had no choice
I have no reason and I have no voice

"But wait you do. You talk all year."
Maybe I do, but do you ever really hear

No you don't because you have your own life to live
I have one too but nothing to give