stories I'll never write

eight.

I wish I said "no" louder
It's a word I speak of tentatively, one that I fear to leave my tongue, one that I hold close to me like it's my dirty little secret
However I wish I screamed it from the rooftops every time
I wish I said no when they asked me if I was okay
I wish I said no when they asked me to choose which parent I liked best
I wish I said no when his vile hands made it's way down my body to places they shouldn't have been
I wish I said no when they asked if I was happy
I wish I said no when they told me I was worthless
I wish I said no and maybe then I would be far away from the person I am today
Maybe then I would be far away from this idea of perfection that haunts me every day
If only I said it louder
Maybe I wouldn't be living my life in fear of what others have to say about me
Maybe I wouldn't be living in fear of myself

(author's note: yes I know I never do these but I need to give a shout out to my friend brynn for the writing prompt. also if anyone has a prompt I'm all for it just leave a comment or message me)