Deathly Kisses

39. "It had been done"

Chp39. "It had been done"





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Dedicated to - rauhlsd0pe :)


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"Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high."





It hit me, it hit me right in my face at full speed. This was it. Hearing my name being called and making my way over to the stage didn't really seem to affect me much. But it was when everyone was finally leaving and a few taking pictures, that I had realized right then and there, that my life had just begun. My real life where I'm the one to make my own decisions without having to have to listen to anyone's opinion. It was like a chapter of my life ended, ready to start a new one and continue on with my book- representing life.


In a couple of hours almost the whole class of seniors were all going to be at Drew's party, ready to say our last official goodbye as a class together. I grew up with some of these kids, known some for years and I just didn't want to let go yet. I couldn't keep holding on forever though, it was now or never.


After coming home, mom had invited a couple relatives over. We had a small simple celebration. It was nothing big though, I was glad for that. And most
of the time I spent upstairs in my bedroom waiting for them to leave. Clearly I wasn't the type of person who liked to spent time with their family, I liked doing things myself, I liked being by myself. I was weird, I know. Besides, it wasn't a real family thing. And to me- nothing was family without dad.


After a while everyone eventually left after saying their congrats along with their goodbyes to mom and I. Right after Macy had came over an hour before we headed over to Drew's. Apparently she wanted to get ready with me- in other words, she wanted to get me ready. I didn't refuse, Macy did pretty amazing things with looks so I wasn't complaining. Although the whole time Macy continue to curl my hair all over, the curls that had died down through out the day but now they were back alive. Unfortunately through the whole time I couldn't help but wonder about Austin. I shouldn't care, I know that. But sadly I did in a way. It was weird how I'd get used to seeing him all the time and he suddenly just goes missing to what feels centuries. And the next day he's back like it's nothing, I didn't understand it.


I didn't understand many things, and I probably will never. That didn't matter anyhow, because in a few weeks after I get everything ready I will be on my way to Miami, Florida. And everything that mattered to me once won't matter at all. Everything will be forgotten and left behind. So there was no use of wasting my time thinking of Austin or anything in general, because obvious enough it wasn't going to matter in the future.


"There" Macy said adjusting one last curl in my hair before placing the curling wand down. "It's finally done after what took to be days, probably even years." She joked.


I gave her a knowing look. "Thanks Macy-" I smiled turning over to face her. "But you know well that I didn't force you to waste your time getting me ready. It was by your own choice, so stop complaining." I let out a simple laugh following along.


"Yeah, yeah." She motioned with her hands. "Whatever."


It was funny how Macy would always love to dress me up and get me ready but would always complain about it later on. Oh god, I was really going to miss her. I tried to keep my head focused on today and not tomorrow, we have to always take one step at a time but that didn't seem to be working for me. Macy's last official day here would be today, because tomorrow morning she would be flying over to California. And that was that, I know somewhere in the future we'll reunite again. But for now, everyone has to sort of go their own way and live a little. Learn from mistakes and try new things; I was planning on doing just that.


We spent the couple of time we had before the party, just talking and spending some time together. And I felt it deep inside me; the sadness striking at its hardest. I truly hated that feeling.


Getting up from the bed, Macy adjusted her dress as well as fixed her hair before looking over to me across the room. "I think we should start heading out now." She said.


I playfully rolled my eyes at her, also getting up from the bed. "I told you that about half an hour ago. But you refused and said you wanted to go much later than everyone."


Macy always had the tendency to want to arrive everywhere late. I was actually very surprised to say the least, when she arrived on time earlier today to our graduating ceremony. That was something unusual. We didn't take much long in checking over ourselves one last time and walking out the door to Macy's car. Getting inside the vehicle made me realize that much sooner I'd have to get my own as well. Call me crazy but I've never really wanted my own car. As most teens would, I never really bothered asking my parents for a car. I saved up for one, a nice decent one- nothing like a dream car but surely helpful. I was a terrible driver and I absolutely hated driving so that was always a no for me. But now that I'm going to be all on my own, it's kind of a must.


Soon after we arrived at Drew's house the sun had barely just set and I could tell right away things were just getting started. Drew has had plenty of parties throughout high school, but I've only really been to a couple. I wasn't much of a party girl you could say, things people were used to were all too new for me. And in all honesty, it didn't bother me either.


Once making our way through Drew's lawn and finally stepping inside his house, everything kicked in. Right away I noticed that this wasn't an all senior party. In fact, there were other people from different grade levels as well. I was not a bit surprised. Macy being the party girl that she is, quickly made her way over to a table where there stood some drinks- leaving me all alone. This was one of the main reasons I never showed to Drew's parties- I was always left alone. At the same time I didn't mind though, usually when things like this would happen I'd go up to Drew's room and lock my self in there. Simply wasting time on my phone. But this time I didn't want to do that, it was Drew's last party and well, I needed to live a little.


Making my way right behind Macy I decided one shot wouldn't really hurt. So I took one. Trust me, I've learned my lesson from before so there was no way I was going to carry myself away like last time. That was far over.


The loud music was making my head hurt, but as if that wasn't bad enough a tall guy from the soccer team that I had seen before, decided to approach me. He was completely wasted. "I've seen you around." He slurred in my face. "Why don't I take you out somewhere special?" He suggested.


The blonde haired boy waited for my reply, I was actually surprised he wasn't falling by now with all that liquor in his system. I simply shook my head in response. "I'm good, thanks."


Laughing stupidly he attached his extremely heavy arm over my shoulder, catching me quite off guard. "C'mon, a pretty girl like you can't be all alone. I'll take you out to dinner- my treat." He continued to insist.


I hated when guys couldn't take a hint. He was drunk I know, but still you've gotten rejected just accept it and walk off before you get more embarrassed. Some guys just didn't know when to stop, they didn't take no for an answer.


Even though I was annoyed and quite angry at this point, still I wasn't a mean person. I was too nice and I really hated that sometimes. "Look-" I sighed, "I'm really thankful for your offer but I said no. So can you please just leave me alone." The last part wasn't more as a question but as a demand instead.


In response, he gave me quite a look. Before walking his arrogant self away and slowly hearing him murmur the word bitch under his breath.


To be honest, I didn't care. I wasn't dumb enough to go with this guy. He was far from sober and not to mention the fact that he was a major douche. Always had some different girl by his side- kinda reminds me of someone actually. I didn't want to think about that now, especially here where I'm supposed to be having fun and enjoying my last time with the people I've grown up with. Though clearly enough I'm not. I was in need of some fresh air, and I needed it fast.


I made my way along through the crowd of people trying to communicate through the music and dancing their body to the best. Which I may add; is impossible. But before I was able to exit through the back door to Drew's backyard, he himself had caught me by my arm.


"Mia where are you going?" Drew asked furrowing his eyebrows together. He wasn't really sober but more like tipsy you could say. "You just got here and you're leaving already?" He threw his hands in the air to state his point across. That really wasn't necessary.


I sighed frustrated. Was anyone completely sober here? "No Drew, I'm not leaving. I'm going outside real quick."


"For what?"


"Get a quick breath of fresh air- I have a headache." Technically I wasn't lying because indeed I was developing one due to the loud music. I really hated parties.


I didn't give Drew a chance to reply because right then and there I had bolted out the door in a heartbeat. Finally stepping fully outside, I took a deep breath in. You could still hear the music playing but it wasn't as bad as it was inside. Looking around the very same yard that I've always had play dates with Drew and Macy growing up, a thousand memories flooded to mind. The Christmas lights were illuminating the whole place. One thing I loved about Drew's parents were probably how they always kept their Christmas lights all the time, filling their whole backyard which was huge. No matter the time of year, they were always there shinning away.


A quick sudden noise was made from the bushes surrounded a white fence, catching my attention at a full speed. I took a few peeks here and there to see what or whom was causing that noise, but it seemed to be nothing for that matter. Slowly playing with a loose curl in my hair I started hearing yet again another noise coming from the same direction. Though this time when I looked over to see what was happening, there it was. The main reason of it all, the way things were being so difficult for me. Everything was right there standing in front of me. No doubt in mind, he was here.

There Austin stood casually as tall as could be, with those eyes of his staring at me like I was worth the stare. Deep down inside me, something told me he was going to show up after all. And maybe just maybe, I was only showing up hoping I'd get a moment like this. That side of me still didn't want to accept it nor admit it. I was a stubborn girl, I've always been so hard on myself. But I guess everyone at some point is like that towards their own. Come to think of it, most girls are hard on themselves. But I? Thins was something totally different.


I wasn't sure if I wanted to smile due to basically everything or at this point go over to him and slap him for leaving like its nothing- so sudden; or third option, because he's simply back. It was a mixture of all. Austin squinted his eyes briefly at me. Lowering his head he licked his lips steadily before gazing back up at me. That too-attractive-for my-league-asshole. Wasting no further time, he finally made his way over to me. And really, I wasn't complaining.


Now standing right in front of me, Austin cleared his throat not breaking eye contact with me. I noticed how he wasn't wearing a beanie nor a hat, his hair was out though I was surprised it wasn't his usual messy curls I've seen before. I've payed closed attention to every single little detail, on how his mint-green colored hoodie was matching his shoes. How his cheeks were a light color of pink. How the scent of him smelled when I inhaled. It was him.


"You didn't think I'd forget about you did ya?" Austin said in a hush whisper, that was meant for only me to hear.


Speechless


I hated how much he enjoyed doing this, playing such games with me. I wasn't the girl to go in that direction, more especially take crap like this. But I guess that girl wasn't here wen it came to Austin. And now here he was doing what he does best, only making things harder on me. I didn't exactly wanted to say that I hated his precede because that would be a lie. I quite actually enjoyed it. And yes, once again I hated myself for that. Overall I hated myself for everything that could link me up to Austin.


Coming closer to me, Austin leaned over my ear before whispering again. "Because I sure didn't." Those few words were enough to make me feel extremely nervous. I wasn't able to taken control of my body, my mind, simply me in general.


My legs were shaking and my hands were sweating as my heartbeat was speeding up, seeming to skip beats. I hated the way he was making me feel, but I couldn't deny it any longer- he was driving me insane. However that wasn't enough to make me forget the long while Austin was gone. And not once bothered to let me or better yet anyone know what was going. I knew exactly that he isn't much of an open person, but what he had done was uncalled for. But I needed to know why he had done that, not bothering to care, not bothering to explain. Not to be seen anywhere. I still couldn't let go of it, I was still pretty pissed off over all that mess. It's not something you just get over in the next day, especially when you just get used to seeing their face all the time. Getting used to them and ways of everything.


I was still here standing in front of him trying to give myself the courage to speak. "Y-you left..." I stuttered. Shit.


Austin only looked me straight in the eyes though, studying me slowly and carefully. Finally he parted his lips and spoke."Didn't mean to that babe. I had other things to do...."Austin replied had replied in a tone that was different from most.


Right away I couldn't help but to notice how his voice had gotten much deeper since I've last heard it, that was for sure. Also couldn't forget nor get over how Austin looked a whole lot older- definitely more grown. That was something that I was having trouble adjusting to. Still, he continued to stand there in the same place facing me, eyes still fixed on me only. It was making me hella insecure, I'll admit. I wasn't much used to people- especially guys staring at me for quite a long while. I was the attention I didn't receive or maybe didn't even notice. Either way, it was something very different for me. In a way, I really enjoyed having Austin's attention.


Tempting to give it a shot at starting a normal conversation I spoke my mind. "How were you allowed at graduation?" That's impossible, you've been gone for so long. The amount of days you've missed are endless." I said, exaggerating quite a bit. But I just couldn't help but to ask. That's not something that regularly happens. And especially to someone who misses school so much like Austin had.


Trough little time, I could tell right away that my question had indeed caught Austin off guard a bit. But his expression quickly resumed back to how it had been before- calm and collected. Something I was not. Something that was completely the opposite of me right now.


Taking a few closer steps towards me, Austin had me completely backed up to a white fence behind me. Not leaving any more room. "You don't have to worry about that," he said. "Instead, you should be worrying about how to control yourself around me." With just that Austin took his hand and with his index finger he traced my lips in a very slow and gentle motion, making my whole entire body tremble helplessly. He didn't notice but I felt it.


I was growing weaker and weaker by the second. The affect he had one me was unbelievably uncontrollable. He had me gasping for air every damn second. Not letting me breath properly, becoming a major issue. My stomach was doing flips and turns and my legs were giving up on me way too easily.


I caught myself before I could slip. "Don't start this with me." I said, snatching his hand away from my face. As much as I wanted it, I also didn't want to be trapped in Austin's web. I was finally out of problems and starting fresh. I had to put my desires and cravings to the side for something better, something much better.


Austin chuckled dryly still not stepping away from me. "Funny how he always go back and forth with this and we always end up in the same place- same situation." He paused.


"-You know... no one really stuck with me much to get to know the actual me. It's always about the fucking bullshit you hear." He bluntly said right after shrugging carelessly like it was nothing. It was weird how Austin had just brought that up randomly, especially acting like he doesn't give a damn about it either.


"It's not like you wanted anyone to sick around anyway."


Austin played with a curl from my hair, wrapping it around his finger as he looked over to me. "Or maybe no one wanted to stick around with a mess like me." He said, "All the problems that I know I bring along, people want better. Did you ever think about that, hmm?" He spoke again, this time his voice was low yet clear through the music.


"Maybe." I nodded my head.


"Amazing how people tell you to be yourself and then go on and judge you." He said.


I guess I really didn't think of things that way, people were so caught up on other's life and assuming certain things that they never really bothered to look at the truth for once. But having him here standing right in front of me, with the many different sides he had- I didn't know which one was the real him. Or if there was even a real one hiding somewhere in him.


"You're not yourself." I blurted out almost immediately as that thought could hit my mind. I didn't understand the need for Austin to show a different character of himself to other people. I didn't get it at all.


"I'm never myself." Was all he had replied with.


The awkward silence between us due to not talking had manger to take it up on a higher level. Standing there as the cool and soothing breeze from the end of spring and beginning of a summer night would hit my skin every once in a while, waiting patiently for anything.


Out of nowhere Austin took control of the situation and pushed my body against the fence as if there was any chance of me getting closer to it. He eliminated any space between us, I swear I was almost sure I could feel his heartbeat against me.


"So why don't we just skip this stupid shit and go right on over to the part where my lips are against yours because as of right now- you're tempting me and I can't take it any longer."


I just looked at him there staring back at me. The way he was so outspoken was something I wasn't really used to. I was out of words left to say, quite frankly Austin had taken everything out of me. I hated feeling so bipolar when it came to him. It wasn't just Austin who was in fact bipolar, my feelings didn't seem to want to decide. It was a constant battle. My heart was racing at such a fast pace that it didn't seem to want to stop. The way Austin's body was pressed up against mine was consuming me whole. That look in his eyes that he kept giving me was making me weaker by the second.


I was giving in.


Austin continued to only look back at me, switching between gazing over to my lips and to my eyes. I could feel just how impatient he was growing and it's safe to say that so was I. With my tongue I licked my bottom lip before biting the corner of it. This however seemed to drive Austin wild, and for once I loved that I was able to cause him to feel such way.


"You're teasing me." He warned pressing his body even closer to mine.


My hands slowly parted from my sides and rested themselves on Austin's shoulder. Right on after I roamed his chest softly and calmly with my hands, loving the way he looked at me. I let out a small and hushed chuckle finally facing Austin, he was a lot taller than I was.


"How about we stop torturing ourselves once and for all, huh babe?" Austin leaned forward as he whispered in the crook of my neck in a raspy voice, with a mixture of impatience.


I've had with it. I was going to get what I wanted. I wanted to feel his body closer to mine than it already was, if that was even possible. The loud blasting beats from the music were still coming from inside, I could feel then against my bones. Even though it was pretty noisy out here, it felt as if the only thing I could hear was heartbeats. Probably mine or probably Austin's, doesn't matter- I could feel and hear them. Right then and there Austin was right. Why torture myself if what I want is right in front of me. Why regret something you once wanted?


Not wasting anymore time, with force I quickly wrapped my arms over to Austin's neck and brought him close, facing me. And right after I crashed my lips onto his. And with the same force, I kissed him as rough as I could not holding back. He was right, it was always better to skip the nonsense and go right into this part.


Groaning, Austin grabbed onto my waist pulling me closer to his body. Right then after he grasped my butt and squeezed it tightly in the palm of his hands, earning a gasp from me and an entrance for him to deepen the kiss. Moving down to my neck, he left pecks of wet kisses there right after he slowly started to suck and bite. The way he was actually biting my neck was such a turn on. As he continued, one of his hands was on my waist, and the other on my lower back. I bit my lip hard, as my hand grabbed onto Austin's arm. When he continued to nibble on my neck, I took no time in digging my nails into the skin of his arm.


That was it. Austin had won control over me and there was nothing I could do about it.


It had been done.


I thought I could handle this, but I really can't.


"You're a challenge." Austin whispered softly against my skin.


"I know."





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(A/N)


Well that was the end of part 1 of DK. I hope you guys enjoyed, and the next chapter (40) will start with part 2.


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