Save Me From The Dark (lashton au)

Prologue

Idk I'm just bored so I guess I'll write a Lashton fan fic? Lol um tell me if I should continue... Also there's a mention of self harm and it might occur in this story so if that's not your thing or it might trigger you them please don't read this :(




Ashton's POV

Death.

It is one of the only things we as humans can't stop, it's inevitable. Lately, I've been think about it a lot.

It fascinates me how I could easily take away my own life.... Nobody would care right? No one would notice would they? Not even Luke, Calum and Michael, my best friends and band mates... Right?

The voices in my head tell me that no body cares, that I'm worthless, stupid, a waste of space, and just imperfect. I believe it all. It's the truth and sometimes I can't deal with it.

So I cut.

At first, one little slash would keep the voices in my head away for a long time, but after a while I started to feel the need to have to do it more and more often. So far, I've kept it a secret from the other boys, but since we're traveling and writing songs in London it has been harder.

Calum almost walked in on me once, and I swear he really needs to learn to knock. Luckily, he didn't see anything but I still felt like my heart was going to explode.

Not that I'd mind if it actually did.

I lay in a hotel bed that I have to share with Luke as I think about all of this. Why haven't I just killed myself already? It's obvious no one wants me here.

But I can't help but realize that someone or something is keeping me here.

I hear a soft snore escape Luke's lips, as he shifts around a bit in his sleep.

I smile. I always thought he was adorable when he sleeps. Sometimes I wake up from him trying to grab me in his sleep and pull me into his chest. I wonder what he is dreaming about a lot when he does that.

It's probably about some girl he likes...

I felt my cheeks heat and my heart burn at the thought. Is that... Jealousy?

It can't be...

And as I finally closed my eyes after hours of tossing and turning, I realized who has been keeping me alive this whole time, unknowingly.

Luke.



SORRY IF THIS SUCKED I TRIED OK?!?! ~Hannah