One Direction Preferences

so yeah jay is gonna kill me when she reads this

so this is me. well not really. this is alea that is typing this and not jay_loves_louis its aleajane so uhm i just want to write this somewhere people will read it because i know that the girl writing this story is not only my best friend but she's wattpad famous people basically, and no one reads my crap stories so thats why im here. 

so here i go with everything ive got.

dear jay,

i love you. i always have and always will. you know this too as i am constantly remiding you. so as you know my grandma is sick and its really hard right now and it doesnt help the fact that not one but to people i know and really care about from my old school have been doing things to themselfs that no one should ever do to themselfs. you know all these things but theres something you dont know. its something that i have never told anyone before and its really depressing. i want to tell you but i cant say it outloud. it explains why i cried so much in grade 6, when everything changed, it explains why i lied about why i was crying, it explains why im so loud and annoying, dont tell me im not because i know you will but i annoy myself soooo... yeah. i want to talk to you as soon as you read this, but i want you to be prepared for my stubborn self that you know is there. and i just realized that people from our shcool read this but you know... im a lazy canadian so i wont be deleting this. i guess i just want to let you know that love you and will always be here for you no matter what happens. you caan tell me anything whenever. do you remember the night you told me? a lot of people are confused but you will know what im talking about. well i remember every detail. everything. i remember exactly what you told me and what you said over the phone and i also remember crying. not sleeping or wanting to eat because i would just cry. i would cry cause i felt so awful that could never be there for you. actually thats a lie. a could have been there but i wasnt and thats what i regret most in life. and even though you dont see it. you are beautiful in everyway. you are per-fect and you have done so much for me its not even funny to think about because ifeel like i cant keep up. just you presence is all i need and the fact that your willing to do more makes me feel awful about myself. bottom line is. i love you and will always be here for you.

-love you forever and ever (that whole thing was really crappy and cheesy but you know... im lazy) your best friend