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Chapter 2 - End of End

Sa isang madilim na highway kung saan ako kusang dinala ng mga paa ko, I walked like a ghost, with blank eyes. Kahit gaano ko pa pilitin ang hirap makarating sa dulo ng daang 'to. Napapaisip tuloy ako kung meron pa nga ba 'tong hangganan. Para kasing wala ng katapusan gaya ng paghihirap na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Kahit saang anggulo ko tingnan hindi ko makita kung ano bang kahihinatnan ng lahat ng ito.

Ayoko na. I'm so tired of begging for others to love me. Pagod na pagod na akong makaramdam ng ganito. Ang gusto ko na lang ngayon ay matapos lahat ng sakit. Lahat ng hapdi at pait na kasalukuyang kumakain sa kaluluwa ko. Alam kong wala nang ibang paraan para magawa ko iyon kundi ito.

Habang tumutulo ang mga luha sa pisngi ko, ipinagpatuloy ko ang paglalakad. Hanggang sa dumating na ang pinakahihintay ko. I saw a white light coming from afar. Closer and closer, little by little. Parang inabot ng habangbuhay bago makalapit sa akin ang bagay na tanging makakapawi ng lahat ng paghihirap ko.

Sa wakas, dahan-dahan na ring binalot ng nakaksilaw na liwanag ang paningin ko. Hanggang sa wala na akong makita kundi ang matinding liwanag. Ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko.

I heard the loud, deafening sound of a car's engine coming fast towards me. Instead of opening my eyes and getting out of the way, I smiled inside and kept on walking.

'This is it... All the pain you've kept for twenty-one long years will be gone now. Goodbye, Alexandra Yves Sujico.' I heard my voice inside me say.

I hugged the death that awaits me with open arms. Death. The only ticket I have to get out of this misery.

SCREACHHH!!!

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~If happy ever after did exist

I would still be holding you like this

All these fairytales are full of it

One more stupid love song and I'll be sick~ 

I answered my ringing phone when I saw his name flashing on my screen.

"Why the heck are you calling at this hour?!" I yelled as I drive towards hell. I wasn't really annoyed by him calling , actually. It's more that I do not want to talk to someone and to tell them the reason why . It's like chewing chunks of a  broken mirror. My mouth tastes sour.

"Bakit ka biglang umalis? Di ka man lang nagpaalam sa amin," he answered and my brows met.

"Shut up, Ban," I said in a low voice. I drove a bit faster since the road was completely empty anyway. "Don't act like you are my Mom."

"Ako? Nanay mo?! Putaena mo!" he said and then he laughed hard. "Baka lang kasi ma-ambush ka ng mga taga-VIOS sa sama ng loob dahil nakuha na naman ng gang natin ang target nila. Haha!"

Damn. If this is the only reason why he called, he better be ready once I get back because I'll surely beat him to pulp. This is non-sense.

"I'm putting the phone down," sabi ko ng malamlam dahil medyo nakakaramdam na rin ako ng konting antok.

It's already past four in the morning and I have been deprived with sleep for two freaking days because of thinking for a damn plan to get what's rightfully ours and not to other incompetent gangs. Isa pa, dapat hindi din ako on the road ng ganitong oras. I was supposed to be on my bed, making up with my loss of sleep.

If it wasn't because I have an asshole for a Dad, I wouldn't be driving by now.

"Teka lang Gian" Ban called, but I cut him off by ending the call immediately. Saka ko inilapag ang phone ko sa tabi ng driver's seat. Unfortunately, it slipped and fell down landing near my foot.