Twisted Strings [MONSTER EDITING - Read at your own risk]

Wailing Violins

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Chapter 26: Wailing Violins

It figured that dad was right.

Lars wasn’t mad at me; he was the only person who wasn’t after all. I sat on my usual spot, on the chair beside his bed as we talked about these matters. He was eating dinner when I came in and making really ugly faces at it. Stella visited him morning followed by the rest and they filled him in with things; though no one told him anything clearly. He just knew that we were in a very bad position and on risk of elimination because of Loud Howls – which in my opinion should’ve been named Loud Frauds - and my association with Oliver.

It was better this way, no one among them were too clear about the situation. After all, I was the only one who talked with Melissa and confronted her. To be honest I didn’t want to tell Lars that we were in the risk of getting kicked out because I told them about our song. I was being too selfish but after getting cold shoulder from rest of them, I couldn’t bear him hating me as well. That would suck a lot. I needed some sympathy for myself as well.

‘’Man this must be hard on you.’’ He muttered as we talked,

‘’I’m still in shock that you’re talking to me.’’ I said,

‘’A good man never saddens the ladies. I am not like that Sullivan Jerk or Oliver; you can count on my charming self. And I can understand how you feel.’’

‘’How so?’’ Was he in love with Brooke as well? Lars wasn’t a committed type and I couldn’t bring myself to imagine him falling for her.

‘’I fell under Brooke’s spell as well. It’s okay Violet. We can’t trust good girls all the time.’’ It looked to me like he was talking to himself,

‘’You are disappointed aren’t you?’’ I asked him, biting my lip,

He shrugged, ‘’I dunno, I would hate it if we’re out without even trying. But I am sure this is not the end.’’

‘’And about the band?’’

‘’If I would say they’ll get over it, would that comfort you?’’ He asked me. Would I? Maybe no because this whole thing had taken away my positive-ness from me and my mind was struck on the worst scenario I could imagine. And I could imagine Rhodes never talking to me again. I couldn’t even put a complete blame on him. It sure was easy to blame people, but taking everything upon oneself was as difficult as that.

‘’I just can’t stop blaming myself, feeling guilty and still wishing for him to forgive me. My feelings are so contradicting, I feel selfish.’’

‘’I may sound like a pussy saying this and I hate talking about deep shit but don’t do that. We’re all selfish.’’

‘’But I –‘’

‘’Sullivan is mad because he don’t know what else to do. Lana and Stella – they just want an excuse to depress themselves and feel angry. Brooke wasn’t the last girl in the world, there’re still hotter ones around. Just look at Indigo,’’ he paused as if stopping himself from praising her, maybe he forgot that Indigo was part of Loud Howls as well and she might be involved in this, ‘’ what I mean to say it. Despite having three hot chicks in my band, I still went for Brooke. Just because she was an easier one. Wasn’t that selfish of me?’’

(Lars was admitting he was a pervert, how brave of him.)

It made me think all over again and once more I was questioning my own thoughts. They felt like messy scrolls I couldn’t put in an order I wished too. They were like a puzzled, badly jumbled one at that.