Trust

Seeking the truth

Bea didn't move from her cell all day, they really started to worry
"What do i do?" Allie spoke to Maxine and Liz
"Love i have never seen her like this" Allie was numb, Bea broke it off with her and hasn't spoke, she walked into the cell to find Bea still laying down facing the wall
"Babe?" Allie sat on the edge of the bed "go away" Bea mumbled back
"Talk to me?" Bea jumped up
"You kissed one of my best friends"
"No Bea she showed me something to use on you"
Bea laughed sarcastically
"So that makes it okay yeah? How would you feel if i had done that?" Allies head fell looking at the ground
"But i don't want anything to do with you or Franky anymore" Even though Bea saying that it hurt the fuck out of her she needed to say it
"You and me whatever it was.. It's done" Allie started to cry
"No Bea i.."
Bea stormed out of the unit and went to the showers, she liked when she was alone, it gave her time to think and understand the situations surrounding her
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It was quite around the table, Bea still in the showers the rest of the crew just sat there
"So.. How are you and Bea?" Liz asked holding her hand
"She broke it off" Allie started to sob
"I can't lose her" she broke down and Franky held her, Bea walked in with a smirk and shook her head, everyone watched. She couldn't believe what she was seeing
"What are ya doing Red?"
Bea looked at her
"Taking it out on Allie when i was the one that wanted to show her"
Bea continued walking
"You're scared" Franky blurted out
"Franky stop" Allie whispered in her ear
"You're scared that someone else might take her away so you're ending it to save yourself later"
Bea turned around, she was angry and hurt two combinations that was bound for a disaster
"Whats it to you Franky? You want hey eh? Have her i don't care"
Franky laughed
"See there it is"
"NO!" Bea shouted
"Ever been sexually violated? Abused? Cheated on? Lied too? Have someone take someone from you? All together?" A tear streamed down her face, she didn't care who was listening
"I confined in Allie, i opened up to her.. She gave me a reason to wake up every morning.. Not anymore" She walked to her cell and shut the door
"What does she mean not anymore?" Franky asked Allie, she shook her head and started to cry, Bea had no reason to live, she loved Allie more than anything in the world and Allie loved Bea more than anything in the world
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Later that day Bea went to the equipment room, with a blade in her hand she thought about all the good times with Allie, all the laughs. Bea wanted to end the pain she pressed the blade against her thigh releasing the blood
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"Hey Booms wheres Bea?" Allie asked
"I've checked everywhere and i haven't found her either" Allies heart sunk
"Oh fuck! I know where she is" Allie ran out the unit
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Pressing the blade deeper with more blood pouring out she heard the door open
"Bea..Stop" Allie shut the door and grabbed the blade, Bea bought her knees to her chest and started crying. It broke Allie seeing her like this and it was all her fault, Allie pulled Bea into her holding her tighter than ever
"Ive missed you so much" Bea mumbles out, Allie started to cry
"I'm so sorry.. It's not what it looked like honestly, i could never hurt you"
Bea nodded and looked into her eyes, Allie wiping the tears away
"I love you so much Bea, more than anyone i have ever met ever" She leaned in and pressed her lips against Beas, feeling her touch is all Bea needed to reassure herself, she loved Allie so much
"You promised me you wouldn't do that again" she knelt down and wiped the blood with her shirt
"I know.. I was lost and confused.. I'm sorry" Allie nodded
"Hey.. You didn't mean we were actually over did you?"
Bea shook her head
"I want to be with you more than anything" Allie smiled
"Now Franky wants to apologise to you" Bea nodded
"Can we stay here for a little first?" Allie smiled
"Of course" Allie sat down as Bea rested her head on her lap, she fell asleep. Allie loved watching Bea, she was so precious and genuine
"Babe.. Wake up we gotta go back for the count" Bea stood up half asleep falling against Allie
"I got you babe" they walked back to H1 hand in hand, Bea practically asleep holding tight on to Allie. They walked into the unit and the crew just smiled, they knew the two loved birds have worked it out, Franky let a smile out to Allie
"Count time ladies" Bea leaned against her doorframe asleep,Allie didn't know if she was extremely tired or sick, when the screws left Allie went over touching Beas arm she was really hot
"Shit Bea are you okay?" Bea shook her head
"I uh.. Don't feel to great" Bea fell but Allie quickly grabbed her, Beas vision started to blur
"Ah shit i can't see" Allie started to worry, she laid Bea down and handed her a wet towel, kissing her forehead she went to leave
"No..Allie stay.. Please"
Allie walked over and got into bed, stroking Beas arm until she fell asleep.Allie admired Bea what she has been through and how she has handled it. Allie was asleep when she went to reach out for Bea she wasn't there,
She turned around the cell was empty, it was 3 in the morning Allie rushed out of the cell to the unit to find Bea lying on the couch watching TV
"Hey you" Bea said
"Fuck Bea you scared the crap outta me"
"Sorry.. I didn't want to wake you" Allie moved closer to Bea
"What are you doing up anyway?" Allie sat next to Bea
"Oh i uh was sick and didn't want to disturb you" Allie kissed her forehead
"Hey.. I want you to tell me okay?" Bea nodded as Franky walked out
"Its 3 in the morning what are you doing awake?" Allie said
"I could ask you the same thing.. Shit Red you look like shit"
Bea laughed
"Thanks"
Franky knelt down and rubbed her leg
"I'm sorry Red, i didn't mean to upset you" Bea smiled
"It's okay forget about it" Bea pulled Allie and Franky in for a three way hug before Franky left them alone
"Want to go to bed babe?" Allie asked tugging at Beas shirt, she nodded. They went to the cell and shut the door, Allie got in first
"Lay on me" She smiled as her girlfriend got closer, Bea gently got on top of Allie resting her head on Allies chest. Wrapping their arms around each other they fell asleep. Waking up Bea was still asleep on Allie, she gently moved Bea to the side so she was comfortable. Bea didn't look well, she was pale and sweating
"Babe wake up" Bea stirred opening her tired eyes
"Hey are you okay?" Allie passed her a wet towel. Bea shook her head
"Do you need to go to medical?" Bea shook her head
"I'll look after ya" Allie got back into bed watching as Bea strokes her face, she slowly dozes off
"Smith!" They both jumped and looked at the door
"Why are you not at your work station?" Bea laughed
"Look at me smiles, how am i meant to work?" Ms miles went over seeing Bea pale
"Novak look after her? If shes no better take her to medical" Allie nodded
"Fucking smiles" Bea mumbled, Bea wrapped her arms around Allie
"Thank you" Bea smiled
"Bea!" The door flung open
"They got Boomer!" Maxine said running out of the unit
Bea got up quickly
"Babe no look at you" Allie worried
"I can't leave her Allie" Bea ran and Allie followed leading to the showers
"Fucking hell you don't give up do ya?" The two Jones girls had boomer before Maxine and Bea tore them a new one,
Pushing their faces into the mirror before they ran off. Bea quickly sat down trying hard to breath
"Shit babe focus on me" Bea looked up and stared at them glowing blue eyes. Grabbing Allies arm and squeezing it
"Inhale..Exhale"
"Obviously ya dork" Bea and Allie giggled.
"I don't know what's wrong with me" Allie shook her head
"I don't either babe so go to medical" Bea shook her head
"Nah i just need to rest i think, boomer how the hell did they get you?"
Boomer laughed
"Fuckers took a cheap shot eh"
"Just watch yourself yeah?" Maxine patted her back. Bea pulled Allie down and whispered in her ear
"Can you help me back to the unit please?" Allie pulled back and nodded, lifting Bea up with her arm supporting her lower back. Bea kissed her cheek as a thank you.