Trust

To the moon and back

"Novak" Allie jumped as she heard ms Bennett's voice
"Your hospital trip has been approved get your things, you will come back with Smith in the morning"
Allie was excited to see Bea hoping she would be okay
They got to the hospital and approached Beas room, Allies heart was beating out of her chest, she could feel her emotions getting the better of her. She walked inside and saw Bea, so many tubes coming out of her. She walked over and held her hand, she started crying and held Beas hand,
Allie felt a squeeze she looked at Beas face as she slowly opened her eyes. Bea could see light burning her eyes, she started to freak out, Allie stroked her hand to calm her down
"Bea...Bea it's okay you're in hospital"
Bea struggled to talk
"A..Allie?"
"Im here babe, just rest"
Bea moved over in pain so Allie could get in, Allie got in and started crying
Bea looked at Allie
"Whats wrong?"
"I thought id lost you.. I'm so sorry"
Bea grabbed Allies forearm and kissed it gently
"Don't be, we are here now together that's all i have ever wanted"
Allie gave Bea a smile as she wrapped her arm around Beas waist, she jumped as Allie had hit a wound
"Shit sorry" Bea just smiled and laid on Allies arm
"You know what i missed you.. Alot" Bea said cheekily biting her lip
"Oh yeah everyone misses me" Allie let out a laugh
"Oh yeah but i'm the lucky one that gets all of you" Bea smirked and kissed Allie softly biting her lip, she opened her mouth a little and Bea slipped her tongue in dominating Allies mouth. They done this for awhile until they needed air, Bea pulled back and seen blood on her side, she pulled it up
"Whoops" Bea said covering it up
"Babe you rest we gotta go back to Wentworth tomorrow" Bea wrapped her arms around Allie as they both fell asleep
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The next day came and Bea and Allie went back to Wentworth, everyone gave them the biggest welcome
"Hey guys how did the hospital go?" Boomer said as she laughs at Bea
"You really want to do this booms?" Bea launched herself and jumps on boomers back, boomer trying to get Bea off falls back on the couch squashing Bea, they all ran over but Bea is laughing
"Oh i missed you guys" they all laughed and Allie had the biggest smile on her face
"What are you smiling at?" Boomer shoved Allie
"That little stunner on the couch" Bea went all shy and stood up, even though she was in so much pain, it seemed to go away when she was with Allie, Bea went to her cell and shut the door behind her, Allie just looked and sat on the couch,
Bea was so happy but she still thought of Debbie every single day, she pulled the picture out from on her shelf and just looked at it, tears coming from her eyes she held it to her chest
Bea looked up at the ceiling and whispered
"I love you to the moon and back" Allie was watching Bea through the window
"I have met a girl Deb"
"You would really like her, shes kind and loving just like you.. I love her to the moon and back too"
Allie started to tear up watching Bea
"I know i can't see you sweetie but i always think about you and i miss you more then anything.. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you, It's my fault and i'm so sorry" Bea started to cry, she looked back to the picture stroking it gently
"But anyway her name is Allie, and i'm going to protect her with everything i have, you two would have so many fun times together.. Anyway ill speak to you tomorrow Deb"
Bea kissed the picture and put it back, Allie sat back on the couch waiting for Bea to come out
"I'm just going to the showers" Bea said walking out
"Want me to come?"
Bea took a deep breath
"No it's okay i won't be long"
Allie was worried but she left it for now, Bea went to the showers feeling the warm water through her hair, thinking about her daughter and her past she started to tear up but fought the emotions, she washed her hair, the hot water piercing her skin, she got out and brushed her teeth, looking at herself in the mirror, she put her hair up in a badass ponytail with the shaved sides. Splashing water on her face, she looked up to see Allie there
"You okay?"
"Yeah i'm fine"
"Are you sure theres nothing you want to talk about?"
"No i'm fine"
Bea went up and kissed Allies cheek as she walked out of the shower block to her cell. She shut the door and watched TV. Allie was more then worried about her
"Hey maxine, what's wrong with Bea?"
"I'm not sure love did she say something?"
"Nah shes just acting a little weird thanks anyway"
It was time for the headcount all of h1 standing outside their cells Allie kept looking at Bea, Bea was starring at the ground, after Mr.Jackson left Bea shut her cell behind her and continued watching TV, Allie stayed up and had a coffee, a couple hours later Allie was sitting on the couch and fell asleep, Bea walked out to see Allie and wrapped a blanket around her, she kissed her forehead and went back to her cell. Bea felt different.. Like she wasn't Bea anymore her mind constantly working overtime
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The next day came and Bea didn't sleep at all, Allie woke up to an empty unit , she went to breakfast the whole crew was there except Bea.
"Wheres Bea?"
"I haven't seen her all morning, but she didn't sleep at all last night"
Liz said as she gazed at Allie
"I'm really worried about her Liz" Allie stomach turned
"Yeah love me too" Allie left the dining room in search for Bea, she looked everywhere and couldn't find her. A couple of hours later Allie seen Bea leave the Bridget's office. Now Allie was really worried, Allie knows what Bea thinks about shrinks, she hates them and Bea isn't one for opening up, Allie went to follow Bea but lost her. It had been about an hour when Allie went to the library, she seen Bea sitting in the corner on the floor with her sketch book, Allie went over and sat next to her, Bea was zoned out and didn't even notice Allie
"Bea"
Nothing happened
"Bea"
Bea jumped and looked at Allie
"Oh hi love" Bea went back to drawing, Allie grabbed the pencil and the book and put it down
"Hey" Bea tried grabbing it, Allie grabs Beas face and gazes into her eyes
"Babe talk to me what's wrong"
"Nothing.. Honestly i'm fine"
"Babe i saw you leaving the shrinks office, thats not nothing"
"Geez Allie can't i have any privacy in this place?" Bea grabs her things and storms off back to her cell, Allie felt useless she can't help Bea if she didn't know what happened
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The next day came and Bea didn't sleep again, her eyes were bloodshot and heavy, she watched TV in her cell and opened her sketch pad up, she focused on her drawing realising what she had drawn
"Hey love" Liz shut the door behind her
"What's wrong love? Allie is on the urge of breaking down because she can't help you"
"I don't know Liz i just don't feel like me"
"We can all see it love.. Just open up to her, she loves you Bea"
Liz walks out and shuts the door, Bea grabs A nail and jabs it into her forearm, giving herself a tattoo with the initials A.C (AllieCat) it was bleeding for a while but Bea covered it up, a couple of hours went by when Allie walked into Beas cell
"Bea..Talk to me please"
"Come here" Bea moved over for Allie
Allie held Beas hand
"I'm really sorry Allie"
Allie held her tight
"It's okay babe.. Just open up to me"
"I can't"
"You can babe.. Trust me"
"I do trust you Allie.. I just can't open up to you when theres nothing to tell"
" i don't understand..you have been avoiding me"
"Yeah i have"
"I..i lost myself Allie"
Allie just stood and gazed into her eyes stroking her cheek
"I felt like i was watching myself from another body..i don't know what happened"
Allie pulled her in and hugged her tight
"Babe..i'm here for you"
"I only stayed sane because of you..i remembered you and it all went away"
Allie smiled and kissed her cheek, she grabbed Beas hand and she jumped
"What is it? What happened?"
"I just um.. Had to remind myself"
Allie pulled her sleeve up to see the tattoo
"You're my Alliecat"
Allie teared up and gave Bea the biggest kiss
"I love you Bea"
"I love you to the moon and back Allie"