UNEXPECTED

18- "We need to let each other move on."

JUSTIN'S POV-

The time was here and we were ready to hit.

We had broken inside Kevin's house and we did what we were supposed to do to make this plan as smooth as possible.

The guy we had threatened back then, had told us what time Kevin and his boys would be gone and what time they would be back.

We were now outside his house.

Waiting.

Excitement poured inside of me at the thought of them finding us here, waiting for them. My whole body was prepared for this: for getting into a fight, for an attack.

These couple of weeks I have been struggling to entertain myself when we were on missions like this. I couldn't enjoy myself while thoughts of Selena were constantly consuming my mind.

It was finally over, all of it.

After this, I will take her home and then we won't see each other again. No kisses, no glancing at each other, no text messages, no fucking thoughts about me being inside of her. None of it, all of it needed to vanish and it was finally going to happen.

I can't have her being with me. She said it herself: it has to end.

I totally agree with her.

I don't deserve her. I mean, what the fuck am I going to offer? My dick?

I wish we were different people with different circumstances.

But this wasn't the case.

We are truly fucked up for each other and that's the truth.

I didn't needed her to be my responsibility, and I didn't needed to be hers.

She wasn't my concern, not my problem. I wasn't hers.

I squeeze my eyes shut and I lift my chin to look at the dark sky. It was pitch black. I found it fascinating that something so far away could look so beautiful.

Looking down again, I decided to let it all go.

I inhalad a deep breath, feeling everything and nothing at the same time. Does it always feel this heavy when you were about to lose someone you never had?

Irritated at myself, I glanced at Za, telling him to give me a cigarette.

When he was about to hand me one, we heard a noise from the other block.

A car pulled over and we saw someone getting out.

A girl?

I walked forward to be able to see more clearly.

Za did the same but Ian didn't move from his spot.

When I saw who it was, the only thing I could do was to turn all the feelings I felt off, and let the rage rise to the surface.

What the fuck was she doing here?

I saw how lost she looked and how she was looking around her surroundings as if trying to recognize where she is.

I was about to say something when Selena had made it close to us. But I couldn't utter a single word before I find her being pushed against the nearest wall, Ian hovering over her.

I ignore the sound of the hiss she made.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" He growled.

I held back from interfering. She wasn't mine to protect anymore and I had to get used to it.