Fire In Her Soul (Completed)

• Chapter Twenty Four •

Ryder-

My heart was beating, my palms were sweating.

"I'm sorry for your lost"

Right at that moment my world crumbled down, Ms Wilson broke down onto the ground sobbing her eyes out, Aden,Sam,Tyler,Danny, held one another before they pounced at the doctor, Em on the couch crying whispering the name of her bestfriend and as for me frozen.

I stood there emotionless, broken, I couldn't uttered a word. I couldn't think of anything .

How are you supposed to feel when the first women you loved is gone?

When you've just got your feelings figured?

When you haven't even had the chance to show how much you love that person?

What are you supposed to do when the women who brought light in your life and changed who you are from the worst you to a better you was gone?

Because I sure as hell was clueless!

The women I had finally realized and the one and only women I've ever love disappear before my eyes,

What am I supposed to do?

How am I supposed to react?

What will happen to me?

she was the first women I loved and taught me through every thick and stones there's always a way to get out. The one who knew me better then I knew myself.

My Amaya was gone, and I don't know what to do, for the first time I was clueless!,

The hot tears began to slide down onto my cheeks, as it hits the ground dropping like a ton of rain, my world was in a daze of slow motion, I couldn't move, talk, I was broken.

I never experienced what it felt to live with someone you love for the rest of your life,

I would never ever be able to hold her in my arms and draw circles on her back like I used to whenever we had our moments,

I would never be able to see her smile and hear her laugh,

I would never be able see her being herself, a badass nerd, she was my nerd, she was strong and downright a be beautiful person, through thick and stones every bone In her body was perfect, but why would she disappear from the earth, she was strong enough!! Why did she leave me?!

Anger and guilt built up inside me!
If I was fast enough to tell her my feelings I would have spent moments with her, if I wasn't a bad boy and was brave enough to tell her my feelings this wouldn't have happened,

I came out of my daze and placed my eyes towards the doctor, as I was about to pounced on him a nurse came running down running out of breath,

"Doc she's responding again"

Right at that moment hope began to rise within me, everyone else stopped what they were doing as the doctor and I began to run back towards her room , the nurses and doctor began to bring her back, as the monitor began to beep and as her heart began to beat , hope began to rise in everyone,

Her Heart was ones again beating, as everyone cheered and cried this time not because of lost but because of happiness,

Miracle happened and brought her back to us,

This time I was determined never to let her go, I would never ever want to feel great loss, especially someone you love. I've been there one's and never want to go back to that place.

Because losing someone you love was like losing a half of you, and without that half you are nothing but a broken record that is unfixable, where you'd feeling nothing but puzzle pieces with it's missing pieces.

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