virgin mom| myg

fourty six

it's been two months since I got rid of them.

I don't feel good, but I don't feel bad either.

I don't get taunted or teased anymore

no one judges me for having a son

I get have my own relationships

I can focus on work and be with friends.

I should be happy.

but I'm not.

I miss holding a child.

or perhaps I miss having someone who looks at me with pride in their eyes.

I feel like I abandoned you.

and all you both never did was look at me like you appreciated me and admired everything I did.

was I wrong for wanting my own life?

or was I wrong for walking away from two people who needed me in theirs?

I feel empty and I don't know what I need to fill myself again.