Broken

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Week 2
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Today is the start of a new week. I'm off to my therapy session with Tim. He's the therapist. I've grown to like this guy in the week that I've spoken to him. He lets me vent, and he says the things that I don't necessarily want to hear, but need to hear.

I walk through the door and smile at him. He waits in his chair with his notepad in hand. It's game time.

I close the door and take a seat on the couch in front of him.

"Ok, Grace. This week I want to talk to you about this Tyler guy." he says to me, and I feel my heart stop in my chest. I haven't spoken about Tyler since the first day I was here.

"Why do we need to talk about him?" I ask him and the shaking in my voice is so clear that I'm afraid he hears it too.

"Because he plays a big part in your feelings."

"He's just a crush." I tell him as I drop my eyes from his.

"You know he's not. He's the one who first noticed your cutting. He's the one that offered his help to you. He's the one you fell in love with."

He is so right. I did fall in love with Tyler. He's a blessing to my life, but I have to remind myself that I'm not a blessing to his.

"I know." I say and I start to bite the inside of my cheeks to keep from crying. I haven't cried in a week, and I'm not starting now.

"Tell me about him."

"What do you want to know?" I ask as my breathing becomes hitched.

"Everything."

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That therapy session was the weirdest one yet. He just let me speak about Tyler. All about Tyler. I shared everything I knew about him, and Tim listened to every single thing, but by the end of the session, his notepad was blank. He didn't write down a single thing.

I don't want to think too much about it. I make my way to the cafeteria. Group discussions were only for a week. It was to help us feel that we were not alone in our own situation, and now, most of the girls are getting better. Including me. It helps knowing you're not the only one hurting.

I make my way to where Jenna is sitting. She was kind enough to get my lunch today for me.

"So I followed your advice." she says as I take a seat next to her. "Tim said I had a breakthrough in therapy today." she says, and I can see that she's fighting back a smile. I wrap my arms around her and give her a big hug. She shouldn't have to hold back her happiness with me.

"Jenna! I am so proud of you!" I exclaim and she lets out a small laugh.

"I'm proud of me too. If I'm lucky, I'll get out with you, and maybe I'll finally get to meet this Tyler guy." she says with a laugh, and I feel it in my chest. I miss him so much.

One more week. I can do this.

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Today I find out if I stay or if I go. Hopefully the therapist will give me the go. I'm ready. I want to go home. I want to be with my family and friends. I feel better. I feel better than I ever thought I would.