shadows of you [#1]

all

if i had known that i would experience all of this because of that day back in april of our sophomore year, maybe i wouldn't have cried in class, and you wouldn't have comforted me.

there would have been no beginning to this lack of an ending. everything would've been different. i wouldn't have experienced such a strong resurgence in my depressing feelings. i wouldn't have felt the need to cry when i saw how you cared about that other girl, and i would've pretended to be alright as i held onto the lump in my throat that threatened to burst into childish sobs. i wouldn't have to always find myself aimlessly stumbling into this territory of my heart that you own, the one i label by all the memories and the thoughts i've had of you and me.

i would never have had to experience any of this, of this so called high school love.