shadows of you [#1]

away

a year ago, given a few days, you sent a message to me, asking me about my day.

you asked me of my score on this test we took in may, and i remember i was all smiley as i sat in the back of my mother's car, texting you over some small topic. i even attempted to keep a normal conversation with you although it ended rather quickly. i remember that i was so happy, even though i had vowed to get rid of my crush on you sometime during the heated season.

throughout the year, you'd message me because we were off and away from school, and i still smiled as i read your simple text. they weren't about school work like usual. they were normal conversations, and my heart found itself still beating a little faster because it was you.

now, it's late at night, and although we are barely anything but strangers now, i waited to see if you'd text me, just to maybe find out my score on the two tests we took back in may.

but you didn't, and everything seems more realistic than before.

i don't matter in the same way as i used to, and neither do you. but it all still hurts the same, somehow, for someone who claims that she feels nothing for you anymore.