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I get so fucking tired of being nice to every little bitch out in this world

Because Im that one friend thats always smiling,laughing, and joking around

Im the one who always tries to be positive when everyone else is upset
And i try to make everyone happy
Do you understand how hard that is?

Like, in one of my classes in school there was the one kid whos always negative about everything and he never shuts up
AND hes always trying to fight someone
Bish im just waiting for someone to step on your 4'11 coachroach looking ass.

Im just so happy its finally summer vacation so i dont have to see those hoes for two months. But i cant wait to my friens again I LOVE YALL BITCHES.

Once i was in class and this kid all the way across the room kept staring at me like non-stop.

So at first i was just like wtf is this bish staring at me for? But then i was like there might be something on my face....

So i akwardwardly would try to move out of the way so he couldnt see me

Yall it looked like this boy was breaking his neck trying to look at me. So of course i got freaked out . So thats why i was happy when linch finally arrived.

But guess who sat next to me?
That lil bish

So i started getting pissed at him staring at me so i asked why he was staring at me.

And basically heres how the conversation went down(h=him, m=me)

H-why are you so happy?
M-what?
H-your always laughing and smiling all the time.why?
M-i dont know it just happens
H- its like i can break everyone in this school except you. And your so innocent. What traumatic thing coulve possibly happened to you to make you so happy.
M-nothing its just natural i guess.

IF ONLY THIS BITCH KNEW
if only he knew why i act so happy all the time
(Yall that was so dramatic, i should be on broadway)

But most of the time im happy because i hate to feeling of being upset , or sad.

I hate crying because it makes me feel so vulnerable , and i hate that feeling when you can feel your heart clenching up and head starting to hurt when you feel like your gonna die.

So im always trying to smile

But people always get mad or shocked when i get mad because their used to me being all nice and shit.

IM A MOTHERFUCKIN HUMAN BEING BITCH WHAT THE FUCK DID U EXSPECT?

Once i got so aggravated at someone that i went off and she almost started crying
She kept talking and i just went off and said"CAN YOU STFU NO ONES EVEN LISTENING TO YOU BECAUSE EVERYTHING YOUR SAYING IS SO UNIMPORTANT AND IRRELEVENT AMD NO ONE CARES. YOUR BURNING MY EARDRUMS FROM YOU TALKING SO MUCH AND ALL IM TRYING TO DO IS MY WORK SO SHUT UP!"
....
....

she looked so shocked
And i felt so horrible after that
I dont know what had come over me so i guess i juat popped

After that i felt so bad that whenever i got mad i would just isolate myself from everyone and i still do that till this day

Im really nice but i can also be real mean when the time comes
I guess its because my family raised me to be quiet if i didnt have anything nice to say
And to be nice to people because it will benefit me in the longrun

Probably why im so antisocial.

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Yup bet yall werent exspecting that
But seriously being nice to people is so exhausting when all you want to do is punch every living being in their face

Xoxoxox😚😍💋😘
-yanna

P.s and im sorry this chapters so long