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Depression | phan [completed]

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Dan Howell is depressed. Phil Lester is not. Dan Howell doesn't want anyone to know. Phil Lester just wants to help. Dan Howell thinks he's alone. Phil Lester wants to be there. Dan Howell pretends he's okay. Phil Lester knows he isn't. ///// *tr...

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by literallyxphanxtrash

by literallyxphanxtrash

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I hate myself.

I drink and smoke. It's gross. That is why I hate myself.

The alcohol burns my throat. The cigar tastes like dirt. It turns my lungs to dust. It makes my brain and body mush. But it takes away the feelings. It makes me calm. And I like it. I need it.

I drink and smoke. It's gross. That is why I hate myself.

I hate myself.