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Depression | phan [completed]

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Dan Howell is depressed. Phil Lester is not. Dan Howell doesn't want anyone to know. Phil Lester just wants to help. Dan Howell thinks he's alone. Phil Lester wants to be there. Dan Howell pretends he's okay. Phil Lester knows he isn't. ///// *tr...

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by literallyxphanxtrash

by literallyxphanxtrash

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I hate myself.

Silent. That is what I am. That is why I hate myself.

I listen to my friend's conversations. Oli's loud laugh fills the air, quickly followed by Caspar and Joe. Their eyes light up. They smile brightly, without a care in the world. Jokes and light teasing goes from person to person. I plaster a fake smile onto my face and pretend to listen, nodding along.

Silent. That is what I am. That is why I hate myself.

I hate myself.