I have spent these last few years
Attempting to move on.
I've tried many different ways.
Relationships that wouldn't last,
For when it came down to it,
I just didn't want those people.
I have tried distancing myself,
Especially those times when the
Feelings are at their strongest,
And start to terrify me.
I have told you my first and last lie,
Hoping that by design,
It would somehow release you from
The burden of the feelings
That I still harbor.
I have been trying to prove to you,
To myself, that my feelings have evaporated,
But they haven't gone yet,
Even after all this time apart.
I don't think they ever will.
I have wanted you to think
That I no longer want you,
Because I respect the foundation
That you've built with him.
I'm more sorry than you'll ever know
For telling you that lie,
But I just don't know
How to deal with unrequited love,
Please forgive me.
Please, my love, my heart,
Don't let these repugnant feelings ruin us.
YOU ARE READING
Lost
PoetryWe all get lost sometimes. Take this journey with me, because we may be lost, but we don't have to do it alone. *Trigger Warning*
