Just A Glance (Lesbian) ( Unedited version)

Chapter 10 - The 1st Hit Never Counts

n*pples. Feeling them harden almost instantly and her

moan out for me to keep going.

So listening I lower my hand to her cl*t and begin to go in

slow circles. As shes moaning she starts to try and undress me and at 1st I was fine, then she reached my

pants.

My heart rate started to go faster and I thought nothing of

it, I thought I was just nervous. Then my palms stared to

sweat and thats when I knew it, I was having another

panic attack. Too bad I didn't realize it earlier because

now I'm hyperventilating and the room is spinning..........

Sometime later I wake to something wet on my head and

get confused.

What happened?

Sitting up I see Anna sitting next to me looking scared. I

don't blame her I just passed out during sex, but why?

Could it be that I don't trust her as much as I thought I

did? Maybe the mark stuff is finally getting to me.

Looking Anna in the eyes I ask how long I was out and

she tells me its been a hour. She apparently was getting

ready to take me to the hospital. Telling her I'm fine, and

that I just needed water. She didn't look convinced but still

says nothing. As she gets my water I burst into tears.

When she returns I make it look like I was fine and fake l

ike I fell asleep.

End of Flashback

That day is really bothering me because I have no idea

how to stop freaking out, so to avoid passing out again I

avoid sex with her. She thinks I'm mad at her and thats

the furthest thing from the truth. I just wish I could tell her

what I'm going through.

Is it weird that I fell I deserve this?

I never valued sex before and when I finally get a girl who

I love with my all I can't show it to her. This is marks fault,

he ruined me. I used to be able to be at ease and I know

how to deal with stressful situations, hell my mom beat me

on the regular bases. Yet this stuff has broke me and left

me in pieces.

Looking at the time I realize we both have to get up and

ready for school. Oh yeah thats another thing I can lie

next to her and kiss her, but when sex comes into the

picture I have a mental break down. Standing and

stretching I reach down and shake Anna awake.

Opening her eyes I feel my heart jump, god how I love this

girl. Smiling at her I lean down and kiss her, pulling away

she looks at me surprised. I know I haven't been showing