So this isn't showing up in people's notif
Probably a blessing tbh
I feel like I should rant about today.
Feel free to disregard this chapter because it's mainly going to be me rambling with an array of unnecessary swear words thrown in there oh my
So I slept well last night but I was exhausted as fuck when I woke up (I s2g I'm just gonna put a swear counter at the end oh god)
Though when you're on the Internet this much, I think you guys know that going to school tired is like every day oh my
So first period was actually pretty good, I got my chemistry results back and I got the second highest result in the class oh shitballs wow I just realised I got second in the class fuck that
Break time was actually pretty entertaining, my friends bet eachother that they could guess the type of porn I watch #HannahDoesNotHaveAnArmFetish2k16
It was maths when everything started to go to shit tbh
WHY IS IT ALWAYS MATHS OH JEEZ
And there's this popular guy who is kind of friends with my best friend ? In a weird way.
But this popular guy, I'm gonna call him ears, always asks my friend about being gay
I mean, I'm glad that he's accepting of it, and I think it's fine him finding out about it
But he always ends up saying people and asking my friend if he thinks they're gay or not
And there was a comment made about the fact that my friend was out was actually helpful to those who weren't out
So then ears started asking my friend who else in our year wasn't straight
And I panicked. I knew my friend wouldn't tell him, but I had like a shot of fear go through my head and my heart started beating faster and I started shaking and oh fuck.
I get nervous thinking about it now? Like, I know it's kinda stupid to get worked up over something like that but I know the shit my friend has had to go through and I don't know
Because I don't hide my sexuality. I just don't explicitly tell people? And it's not that I'm embarrassed or anything, I just don't want the populars knowing for quite a while fuck
So I was kind of on edge throughout the rest of that lesson and throughout lunch.
And then in PE I was just uncomfortable after what had happened in maths
And then I got put in a group with the first girl I'd ever had a crush on.
So that just made everything so much better
Though after the lesson I was waiting for the changing rooms to be unlocked and I saw my friend
And we both looked at eachother at the same time and said kill me so in sync oh wow
And then in my head I was thinking about how much I'd prefer to do PE with the guys oh my
But that's a tangent for another day
But all in all, today wasn't that shit it's just I felt like typing out all of this so that I could stop feeling so on edge oh fuck
But yeah.
Sorry for that.
Oh wow I only swore 7 times oh jeez
