I Need You ( A Jikook angst fanficiton)

Chapter 2

I woke up at 9pm and start to get ready to face the day. I exit the room and enter the kitchen. I feel all the members looking at me.
"Jiminnie! I made Pandcakes for you!" Jim hyung says happy and point at my seat. I see a plate full with pancake! I can't eat that! I will become fat.
"Sorry Hyung but I don't have time to breakfast. I oversleept and want go to the gym and after that I'll go to the dance studio. I need to practice." I say. I'm jusy half lying. I will not eat but that with the gym and studio is real.
"Jimin! We have three days off. Please relax a little. You are to stressed." Rapmonster says. I just shake my head.
"Let him go. He will totally need it!" I look at the source of the voice and see Jungkook glaring at me.
"See even Kookie says it" I pretend that I'm happy and give him a smile. The members just look at me and then at Jungkook.
"Jimin hyung? I also think that you should maybe rest today. You look tired." V says. I look tired...I didn't get alot of sleep. I should put a little makeup on later.
"AISSHHHH. Just let him go! I want to eat right now and after that just have a relax day. It will be even better without him im this dorm!" Jungkook says.
"JUNGKOOK!!!" all the members say shock, even J-Hope, who just got back and Suga who is normally to 'swag' to even care.
"See Jungkook things the same as me. I will go now. Bye Hyungs, V and Kookie." I say in the best happy voice that I can manage, turn around, put my shoes on and then leave the dorm.
I hope that Jungkook will have a good day without me disturbing him.
----Time skip 7 hours later--
I'm lying on the hard floor of our dance studio and breath hard in and out. I take my phone, it's already 5 pm. I dance for like 7 hours? Wow...but still I'm not getting better at all. Maybe I should quit. I lock into my phone. 20 missed calls and 120 messages? All the member but not Jungkook called me or message me. Even Suga hyung.
I open the messages from Suga.
-Jimin? Jungkook doesn't mean it. You know that right?
-He is in his 'war of hormones' phase.
-he is still a baby!
-Are you alright?
-He got totally no jams.
-That means that you got jams now. Be happy!
-Why aren't you answering?
-I called you.
-JIMIN?
A little smile appears on mu face but disappear again when I think of how they are concerned about me on their free day. I decide to message back.
-Hyung? I'm ok, don't worry. Sorry that I didn't reply but I'm still dancing so I didn't heared the phone.
I send the message and a reply. Since when is Suga this fast????
-It's alright Jiminnie. Have you eaten? When will you come home?
Ok? It's very rare of Suga to call me Jiminnie! He must be so concerned!
-Yes hyung. I aet already. I don't know when I will come home but don't wait.

I turn my phone off since I kind of know that they will totally phone me now. This is really bad! Even Suga is concerned and that means no good.

See you are worthless! It's good that you didn't eat for two days!

I shrug at the voice. I look down at my stomach and see still fat. I lift my sweater up and see again only fat! I roll my arm up and look at my wrist. I see new and old lines. I remember the first time I did that.

-flashback-
We just had our comeback with 'danger'. I'm actually very happy since I like the song, dance and the concept 'bad boys'.
'Why does he have to stand at the front row if he gets it wrong, like always then the fans will be mad.' Jungkook complains to the choreographer.
"You can have my spot Kookie!" I say but still very hurt of his words.
"No Jimin. That's your spot. You are perfect for it and I will not change it Jungkook." our choreographer says.
"Pfff you only got the spot because you are so small that nobody would notice you at the back. But believe me that the fans will not notice you even if you dance at the front" He then turns around and leaves with the choreographer the room. I'm standing all allone in the dance studio looking into the mirror. Tears sliding down my face. Am I really that bad???? I wipe my tears away. I'm suddenly really angry at myself. Why Am I so useless????
---flashback ends---
That night I did it for the first time ever. I can't stop anymore, I need this punishment.
"Jimin?" I jump up in shock and look at the person at the door. Suga. Why is he here?!
"Hyung, why are you here?" I ask. I'm lucky, that I had already wiped my tears away.
"I came here to get you! You phone is turned off and I was a little concerned!" He says and come up to me. "Are alright? You look like you have been crying."
"Really? I didn't cried. I was only dance. It could be that I got sweat into my eyes." I lie and wip my eyes.
Suddenly Suga take my wrist. I give him a questioning look. He looks hurt for a moment but the look at me with a blank face.
"Hyung?" I ask confused. Why would he be sad then put a blank face on? And why would he take my....wriste? OH NO MY WRISTE!!!!! I FORGOT THAT YOU CAN SEE MY MARKS.
I start to panic and try to take my wriste out of Sug hyungs grip but it was useless...just like me....I could kind of laugh right now.....
"Jimin? What is this?" Suga asks and turns my wriste around. You can clearly see my work.
"A cat. I helped a cat and it scratched me!" I say and give him a smile.
"A cat? Do you really think that I would fall for that? And don't you dare give me your fake smile!" He says and gives me a little glare.
I take my wrist forcelly. He let go and looks at me shocked. My fake smile disappeared from my face and I give him an emotionless face.
"Hyung. When I say that it was a cat then it was a cat" I say to him in a monotone voice. I pull down my sleeves and turn around to get my things.