While I was walking all I could think about is how stupid I was to think Thomas could like me. He only sees me as friend, only ever will. The way he just talks about everything and anything so freely is so, I don't know, breathtaking. I know I'm not the most attractive guy but I really thought he could like me. I'm such an idiot. I looked over at Thomas saying something. He was talking to me and yet I had no idea what he was saying. I looked forward again. I wish I could just know what he thinks, or even what I think. I mean do I actually think I'm gay, or am I just confused. Do I actually like Thomas or do I just like the attention I get from him. Well he doesn't give me much attention anyway. I heard Thomas laugh. So I forced a laugh. I really should be paying attention. Emotions, let me be
"Newt?" I looked over to see Thomas five feet behind me. When did he stop? Did he say something important. I scratch my head and walk towards him. He just stared at me. I looked at him. Looked away. Looked at him and then raised my eyebrows.
"Yes?" I replied. Damn I sound like a brat. I probably am a brat.
"Why the hell were you just laughing!" I flinched at his raising voice. Was I not supposed to laugh! Didn't he laugh and that was my cue to laugh? I looked at him confused and said the most idiotic thing ever.
"Because you said something funny"..... Oh wow Newt. Way to go, the best comeback of all time. I mentally face palmed. Welp.
"Oh I did now? What part of you dying in the maze is funny?" He told me. I look into his eyes. Oh god why does he have to be so beautiful. "You weren't even paying attention to me, were you?"
"Sorry I'm just bloody out of it today" I looked down and he chuckled. Why does that laugh make me smile. He tapped my back.
"It's okay Newt. We all have those days." I feel like I should tell him about my feelings. I don't know why I just have a sudden urge to. I look at him smiling. He could leave. He could break my heart into a million fucking pieces without knowing it. He could hurt me. Fuck it.
"Hey Tommy?" I looked at him. He looked at me. He was waiting for my response. What did I just do. Oh bloody hell.
"If I told you something..um..confusing. Would you try to understand?" He smiled.
"Of course" I opened my mouth to tell him. To finally explain what I felt. Until Minho wrapped his arms around Thomas and rest his head on his shoulder. WHAT THE HELL!
Thomas looked over at him and smiled.
"Sup" Minho laughed out. I just stared at them. I pulled on my hair. Not like hard but like what you do when you're annoyed. Or is that just me? When I'm annoyed you can definitely tell. I smiled at them and walked away. I heard Thomas grunt and laughter. He placed his hand on my back walking beside me.
He looked at Minho. I looked at him. This better not be some stupid love triangle because I'm not up for that shit. You know that feeling when you know you can do nothing to help. Nothing to make things right? That's how I felt. Why did I seriously think I could tell him how I felt. He's never going to like me. I mean look at him! I can't. Then he said
"Minho's cute huh?"
Sorry I haven't been updating. I've had school. And today I just went through a break up. I'll try to update again soon. Thank you for the reads! ❤
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Please No ( Maze Runner - Newt X Thomas )
फैनफिक्शनNewt becomes great friends with Thomas when he comes into the maze. But what will happen to their friendship if one of them starts gaining feelings for the other?
