Second Time Around // Newt x Reader

9

You just looked at him, studying him, trying to see if he was hiding something. He was telling the truth. You could tell that much.

You did the last thing you would have expected yourself to do. You broke down. Just like in the dream you had, right before you jumped off the Cliff. Crying, breathing heavy. You don't know why. Minho looked surprised by this, too. You had been keeping your feelings bottled up, trying to seem as strong as the guys, but that really wasn't what was going on at the moment. You didn't care who saw, everything just hit you all at once. You finally realized you were probably never going to get out of this place. The walls seemed to close in on you. Minho wrapped his arms around you and just held you as you had your anxiety attack.

"What the bloody hell is going on in here?" A familiar British accent sounded from the door way.

Minho shushed him.

You heard footsteps getting closer and you flinched, causing them to stop. Voices in your head sounded up.

Nothing changed.

You're a horrible person!

No one loves you.

Stop trying to make things better!

You're not helping!

I hate you!

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!" You screamed holding your hands to your ears trying to block them out. You squeezed your eyes shut. It only made it worse.

There's no way out.

You can't help them.

You can't save them all.

You're not smart. Just stupid.

You can't do anything right!

I can't believe you messed that up!

I asked for one thing!

You're a mistake!

You are hideous.

I don't believe you!

No one believes in you.

You're not special.

I never wanted you!

You screamed again, holding your hands tighter o your ears.

"THOMAS! ALBY! SOMEONE!" You heard Newt yell as he ran over.

"DON'T TOUCH ME! STOP! PLEASE!" You yelled and cried harder.

You heard hurried footsteps coming down the stairs.

"What the hell is going on?" Thomas shouted over you screaming

"We don't know!" Minho yelled back.

"Get her up!" Alby yelled.

Someone's hands wrapped around your ankles and wrists. You took your hands off your ears and hit and kicked at them as hard as you could.

"(Y/N)! Stop fighting! We're only trying to help!" Thomas yelled.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" You screamed as you kicked another hand away.

"We've got to knock her out." Gally said.

"No. We can't risk it. Her heart rate is too high. We could kill her." Minho said. He had finally let go of you and was standing next to Thomas.

"It's our only option."

"We don't have any options."

"Do it." Newt said.

"What?" Minho squeaked.

"Believe me. I know (Y/N). She can pull through this."

You can't be a hero.

No one ever liked you.

You're an embarrassment.

I hate having you as a daughter.

You're supposed to look up to me! Not a stupid boy who ruined our studies in the first place!

You screamed again.

"Do it!" This time Newt sounded more urgent.

You felt pain on the left side of your head. The warm tingle of blood flooded the area.

The voices finally stopped, you let go of your ears and let your hands fall.

"Thank you." You said in a whisper.

Darkness filled your vision and everything seemed to stop.