When The World Fails You

When The World Fails You Part 16

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Madison

　

I woke up to darkness. My arm reached up above me and switched on the light to my room. I looked at the clock near my bed and it read midnight. I got up, undressed and crawled under my covers. It was always cold in this house. The air conditioner was always on during the summer and the heater during the winter. We rarely opened the windows for the real thing.

This house is one big mirage. Its not real. Sure its here but its not real. Everything in this place is filled with something that has little to no meaning. It’s all just materialistic things that might of seemed nice but had no value to the heart. And the one thing that I held onto in this house was the one thing my parents had to take away from me.

Maria was there for me whenever I needed her. Even when I didn’t want her around she barged in because she didn’t want me to shut her out. She never forced her way into anything without a legit reason. Her factors for being here, for loving me like one of her own, are a mystery to me. She didn’t have to gather me in her arms when I was five years old and hold on ever since. I didn’t have to do the same. But we did in unity anyways.

I feel like I’ve lost her forever.

Tears slipped from my eyes. I gripped my pillow and cried softly into the sheets.

The silence was too loud for me to pull through on, but my cries seemed to sliver their way out and cope with the eerie noise that was nothing.

　

Ray

I sat on the balcony and stared up at the stars. I lost count after I got to five hundred. My two 40z were all gone and I was going through cigarettes like it was my last night alive. The bums were already crawling around the empty house doing what they did best. Most of them ignored me, but a couple of times I was asked if I wanted some drugs. I said no over and over until I became annoyed by the idiots.

They finally left me alone.

I didn’t know if I wanted to be or not.

Madison kept creeping into my head.

She was like a hall of mirrors.

All of these reflections of her and somewhere along the mirrors the real her was standing around waiting to be found. Or maybe it was hiding on purpose. I feel like she’s standing on the edge of the road, looking for the answer. Her whole persona blew my mind.

This was a shitty way to end my night. Drunk and thinking about Madison. I felt like I was getting over a breakup that didn’t really come from an existing relationship.

I lit another cigarette.

I don’t know what’s going on.

Is she wasting my time, or am I wasting hers. Are we wasting each others? Or are we just fuckin wasting away in general.

Well I guess that last one was a given.

I didn’t find out she quit the team until after everything went down today. Frank had called up Courtney to talk about what was going to happen with them. Then after he tells me Madison had quit the team to stand up for Courtney. It amazed me. I didn’t think she had the courage to do something like that. But she walked out with her head held high and a grin on her face.

She did something I couldn’t do; give up her reputation.

Maybe she is just a little bit stronger than me.

　

Madison

　

I woke up around noon, feeling weak from last night. An hour past until I decided to actually get up from my sheets. I walked into my bathroom and showered, changed into some clean clothes, and put my hair back. Tonight was my sisters last wedding recital and I didn’t feel like going. So I wasn’t going to.