I froze. I sat focused on the dots on the wall the entire period. I counted to tiles on the floor and on the ground. I'm silent. I hear both Chris and Fawn try to talk to me and each time i held my finger up to my mouth and pointed to the teacher to signal for them to pay attention even though i was doing nothing of the sort. I wait one second to run out of the class. Drop a notebook but don't turn around to get it because the only thing important is my journal and my phone in my bag. When i reach the bus trying as hard as possible to avoid Everyone a sudden wave of fear come crashing agains the walls inside. My freaking journal. Damn it.
I run off the bus with my things and head to the hall i dropped it in. No one is there and I immediately start panicking. I see a paper on the floor and run to it. No. Its one of my drawing i pick it up and shove it in my bag. I text Fawn and she says she thinks Chris has it.
Shit. I make sure my stuff is secure and run out side to the short cut. I find another drawing and just adout cry. I keep going and just hope Brads not at my home. I walk all the way to his house and knock on the door. A little girl with french braids in her hair opens the door.
-"Hi my name is Maria! Can i help you?"
I smile at the little girl and ask If she's seen Chris.
Maria-"CHRIS!! There's a pretty girl here at the door for you. Hurry before she leaves!"
I laugh a little. I smile at her and tell her my name. She giggles and runs away as soon at he gets the door. Two words can capture this moment: embarrassment and Awkwardness. We say nothing until i can't handle the silence.
Me-"Can i have my journal back?"
I hold a serious face. He looks at me, really looks at me. I realize my face and cover my eye with my hair and look down.
Chris-"What happened to your eye?"
Me-"Nothing can i have my book back? I need it. Please."
I feel myself about to cry so i turn around and look up. Don't you dare cry Madi.
He walks away but leaves the door open. He comes back a second later.
Chris-"Well don't just stand there, come in."
I know i look shocked but i come in. I follow him to what I assume is his room. He opens the door.
Chris-"I'm sorry. It fell out when i put my bag on my bed."
I stand there for about four seconds and the imediately drop down and pick up every peice of paper i can find. I put then back into my journal as fast as i can and when I'm done i shove it in my bag. I get up and say bye. I run out of his room. Maria yells bye and i smile at her and say bye back. I run outside and run to my house to check if brads there. He's not so i go to the park. I get my phone out and i see i have a text. I open it and it's from Chris.
Chris-What did i do?
Me-Look you didn't do anything. Today has just been a bad day. Im sorry for my rudeness. Tell Fawn yes, please.
Chris-Fine. But you better talk to me tomorrow. I'll tell Fawn yes.
I open my bag and take my journal out. I take every page out and put them back in order. I go to the last clean page and start to draw. At first i thought it would be a nice summer day with some building in then back ground and a girl in field playing in the flowers. But, i could draw it so i changed it. Same lay out but instead it was raining and the girl was crying in an empty field. I put all of my stuff in my bag and walk home. When i get home i notice my mom is home so i say hi ans go to my room.
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Changed for life
General FictionMadison has always had friends but never really felt like she was close to anyone. She felt alone but practically knew everyone at her school. One day she goes to school and to her Aunt's house with painful surprises waiting for her. She has to fin...