When The World Fails You

When The World Fails You Part 15

“What?” I walked over to my locker and opened it. “Slow the hell down man, what’s up?”

“Courtney…she’s pregnant. Its mine, man.” His voice is quick and panicked. I almost drop my folder and turn to him. He nods. “Yeah fool.”

“What the fuck man…” I couldn’t believe what he was telling me.

Frank rubs his face and leans against the locker. “I hung up on her when she told me. I told her I didn’t want shit to do with her.”

“What? You can’t fuckin do that man.”

“I was just talking out of my ass Ray,” He looks at me. “Courtney, she’s cool. I wanna be there for her. No one else is. I just don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do…”

I leaned against the locker beside him and looked over towards the doors. “You know what you have to do man. That’s all I’m going to say.”

“I’m going to be a dad.” Frank mumbled. “And I don’t want to be a fuck up like my old man. I don’t want to leave my kid behind like he did to me…”

“You wont.” I assured him. “Your better than that.”

Frank knocking up a girl shouldn’t of been a surprise to me. Still, it was. We’re too young to be having kids. Its not supposed to happen to soon. But its there and now he has to do something about it. Either step up and be a man, or step down and be in shame. I knew Frank well enough to know he was going to step up. He’s not the type of guy to let something like that down. He’s going to be a dad. A fuckin DAD.

The tension with Frank seemed to ease up until Madison showed up out of nowhere and began ranting and scolding her input towards Frank. I saw Courtney and she looked out of it. Sad. I get it, Madison was standing up for her. But this wasn’t her business to be putting out there.

I pulled her away.

Then next thing I knew she’s confessing her love to me.

And it sunk in.

She sunk in.

Nothing ever occurred to me the way it did when it came to Madison. The staring, the acting out towards me, the small war. It was because she loved me. She made this whole cliché act towards me because she loved me. And I fed into it because I really had hate for her. Now it all just seemed like nonsense.

I don’t love Madison.

I don’t see what she sees when it comes to that emotion.

So I tell her.

And she runs away.

When I see her leave I want to call her back. I wanted to make it up to her, to take back everything I said.

But I can’t.

Because I’m not as strong as I think I am.

I went to the pep rally.

I thought maybe I’d be able to catch Madison there since I didn’t see her around the rest of the day. She had to be there, I mean, she was in charge of the whole damn thing.

I sit next to Frank and look out for her. She’s nowhere to be found.

I see Kara walk out with the rest of the cheerleaders and they begin without Madison. A small part of my stomach twists with a sick feeling.

“I gotta go man,” I look at Frank as I get up.

“Why?”

I shake my head. “I just have to go.”