(Note: I've been in love with Avan Jogia since he was in Victorious😂)
I really did hate secretly dating Liam, but then I didn't. Does that make any sense? I mean yeah it sucks I can't suck his face off in public but then rush I get when he literally pulls me into the janitor closet just to make out, damn.
Or usually when we go behind this tree on top of the hill that has a awesome view of the out school's field where the games are held. I remember the other day where Liam had almost tripped over a rock when we were racing up to the top and I died laughing.
Of course he glared at me but he pinned me against the tree for revenge, yeah we kissed all lovey dovey like but I had damn splinter in my pants that poked at my butt
I walked down the steps of the school noticing my friends near the pole withthe schools flag nearby waving me over sitting, "Hey" I say fist pounding Michael.
"You riding with us?" Harry asks with a smile. "We're going to the diner for burgers" I shake my head making him pout
"My aunt is picking me up, said she had a surprise or something" Elizabeth claps excitingly, "Oh that's cute"
Michael nods, "Maybe it's junk food? Oh her famous chocolate chip cookies yeah?" Harry nudges his arm, "Oh your getting hard at the thought of them aren't you?" Elizabeth snorts as Michael shoves Harry a little
"No," I chuckled. "She said it was someone visiting, I don't know who though" I said. Harry gasps grabbing at my arm making me frown thumping his head. "What if it's your cousin Avan? God he so so so hot" Harry rambles on
Michael and Elizabeth nods in agreement making me cringe. "Ew no he's not" Michael scoffs, "You think he's ugly because he's your cousin, but cmon admit it Zen he does a pretty hot face" I rolled my eyes listening to them talk about how 'hot' my cousin Avan was
Avan was my 21 year old cousin who was currently going to Bradford State University. He would always visit on his breaks, I mean why wouldn't he? He was AC's only son, he was like an older brother to me
When I first started living with my aunt, he'd always invite me to play with him so I wouldn't feel left out. He treated me as if I always lived here which made me grateful. But I still kind of felt awkward around him sometimes
I used to have a lot of panic attacks when I was younger for some reason. I would always have these absurd dreams that would scare me to the point where I'd wake up screaming or worse freeze up
I remember when I had a really bad one, Avan and I were sleeping in the same bed. It always felt like sleepovers, even though my bed was across from his, I always liked sleeping with him
I had a really bad dream, I woke up crying and screaming. I remember him looking at me like I was crazy and he went to get AC
I still have the faint memory of my aunt hugging me tight trying to calm me down. Trying to get me to stop screaming, and I could see Avan standing by the doorway looking afraid
I was so embarrassed that I stopped sleeping in the same bed with him. But he always told me it was alright, he told me it was something I couldn't control. He would always get in my bed rather then me getting his anyways. Didn't really make a difference
