L O L I T A ' S National Anthem (COMPLETED ✔️)

O P E N // 8

I cave in and light a cigarette

I sit on the edge of the bed facing away from her so I don't meet her gaze

I hate myself for smoking in front of her but it's been a stressful day

I've told Sophie about her

She says I need to be more open

More loving

More affectionate 

I ask about her family life

She tells me about her sick mum

"My mum died of cancer when I was 14," I tell her

I never used to talk about it because it was painful

It's not so bad now

Plus there's no one else I'd rather tell than her

Stubbing half my cigarette out, I roll to her side

Planting majestic kisses up and down her body

I pull back her white silky knickers and smile mischievously and look her in the eye before going down

Coming back up, we drown each other in love and affection

We fall asleep entangled in each other's arms

Sometimes she looks so young when she's asleep

Sophie calls me in the middle of the night

"What's up dickhead?" She says leisurely

"She's in my arms right now," I state proudly

"My baby brother has finally found someone," Sophie sighs content 

"Mum would've loved her,"