Haunted

seventeen

Her lips are like ice, and my skin is on fire. Somehow I am infused with the frigidness of her touch and the natural warmth of my body. I dont know why this is happening between us.. How is this happening between us? She is dead and I am alive.. How is this even possible?

Her lips and my lips move in sync.. It's like fire versus ice. Or should I say ice combing with fire..

Rhian's hands rest on my cheek, and mine rest on hers..

She move a little to the side for her to have more access to my lips, and so am I. Even in coldness, I am loving the soft touch of her lips to my skin..

She pulls away lightly but our lips still brush gently with each other..

Her gaze is cast into mine, and I don't know how to react. The blood in my veins are like in a race and my breaths are short.

Our eyes are locked and I try to read them. What is she thinking?

Did she feel the same that I felt?

I tuck a piece of hair behind her ear. She shift away from me and stand up. I am looking up to her and she stretched her hand for me to reach..

"Thanks" I say as I stand beside her..

"That was my first.." She says as she giggles..

Her first?

"Also my first.." I answered back.

"Unfortunately with a dead girl.. Hahaha"

Hindi ko inexpect na makakaexperience ako ng ganito. I was the quite the party animal before and I'm not used to this kind of relationship.. If we even call this a relationship... What are we even doing?

"Rhian.."

"Yes?"

"Did you-" I look at straight to her shyly. "Did you feel it too?" I ask

I find my self wishing that she did.

She looks at me, smiling from ear to ear..

"Ano ba naman ako.. Wag mo ng pansinin yung tanong ko.. Ha ha ha" I fake a laugh and i start to walk away..

But she then pulls me back to her. Leans forward and to my ears. "Yeah.. I did Glaiza" she whispers..

Nararamdaman ko nanaman yung weird na feeling na nararamdan ko kapag malapit siya sakin..

I couldn't help to smile by her answer.

But

Are we even possible? To love one another? Like.. She's dead Glaiza, and i am alive..

What was I thinking? Na pwede kong nalang palitan yung concept ng life and death? Na sa isang halik maibabalik ko ang buhay niya? This isn't fairytale Glaiza.. Keep that in your mind. A kiss cannot fix everything..

I look down at the ground but she lifts my chin.. "Hey, I know what you're thinking." Rhian says..

"It's not your fault okay?" And smiled.

I wonder if she's thinking of the same thing.. We are like dreamers being shot by reality.

"I need you to smile Glaiza. Let's not think of other things right now.. Can we please just focus on what we have now.."

"Now?" I asked

"Yeah.. Us"

We stare at each other for a few moment, and I start to lean towards her.. Wanting to feel her lips again on mine. Inches and inches apart, I feel again that same icy aura..