bts imagines

• RAPMON •

- Unhappy

How many times have I seen you with others?

I don't know...Maybe every single time...

Do you know how much it hurts?

No...You're so selfish...

Why didn't I leave you despite the fact that you didn't really appreciate me?

I still love you...

Why did you do all this?

Only he knows...

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We were married to each other forcefully.

But still,shouldn't you at least do your duty as my husband? Shouldn't you at least appreciate me and live a happy life together with me?

But you didn't,you ignored it and I was your slave.

[ Aren't you tired of the usual morning hate? Because,truthfully,I am. ]

"Namjoon-ah,wake up~ Its time for breakfast."

Hearing him clicked his tongue while turning to face his back to me,was the least painful thing.

"Namjoon-ah...You wouldn't want to-"

"I KNOW WHAT I SAID! CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME FOR A FEW MINUTES?! I NEED TO SLEEP! HOW ABOUT YOU PREPARE BREAKFAST AND STAY OUT OF THIS?!"

Hearing him yell,was unusual,but lately,this yelling thing had been a routine.

Flinching at his outburst,was a normal reaction people would gave.

Doing what he told,was a sign of care.

"WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP?! AND WHERE THE FVCK DID YOU HIDE MY UNIFORM?!"

Seeing him running around the house desprerately,actually worries me.

The feeling of guilt for ruining his day,was always with me.

"I-I'm sorry...I-Its hung behind the door..."

My slight stammer,was a sign that shows how sorry I was.

Ruffling his hair and stomping to our bedroom,bothered me alot.

Was he mad at me? Did I really reached his limits? Would he forgive me?

"Namjoon,I already prepared breakfast for-"

"I RATHER STARVE THAN EATING YOUR POISONOUS FOOD!"

Heading towards the door and slamming it right after,was it a sign of rejection?

Skipping breakfast,all I wanted was to suffer with him.

~

[ I'm lonely at home,what about you? Because you're always leaving me alone when I didn't wanted to. ]

Glancing at the clock,was what I've spent doing most of my day.

Buying groceries,only when he gave me my pocket money.

Went out,just for fresh air.

~

[ Did you slept well? Because my night was horrible. ]

Waiting for him till late at night,was actually the most pointless thing I've ever done.

Getting hurt when he brought home a girl,was always useless.

"Yahhh...Youuu...Slaveee...Go make our bed so we could get more comfortableee..."

Following his commands,its because I loved him.

The girl he spent the night with,would fled away early the next morning,causing the usual routine to happen.

~

Our anniversary was always the worst day.He would leave the house really early and went back home at midnight just to avoid that day. Why?

I always bake a cake for us specially on that day,hoping that one day we'll celebrate it together but maybe it would never happen.

"Listen,you and I,have nothing going on in between us.I don't know you and you must not know me too.This day is nothing.We had nothing.I'm leaving for work now,bye."

It stings somehow.Ignoring that special date,was what I couldn't do.That date was also the start of my hell life.My start with Kim Namjoon.How could I ever forget it?

"I would never liked someone like you."

His words when we exchanged our rings hurt the most.

~

I couldn't take it anymore.Those are all haunting me.I don't understand why didn't I leave him real soon.It scares me.

Sometimes he would just beat me up if I didn't listen or do what he told me to.I felt like I'm being used.

Its rare to see him eat at home but when he does,he would just threw the whole dish at me right after taking a small bite.If there's no groceries,he'll force me to go and get some.

There's no way out except...

"Leaving him..."I muttered.

It was audible.In that small room I've been weeping away,those two words could be heard.I need to leave this place before I die a miserable death.

I need to be happy...

"Leaving the one I love,will that really make me happy?"

A deep voice could be heard at the back.I immedately wiped away my tears and faced him.He looked at me with an expression I've never witnessed before.

"W-What do you mean?"I stuttered.

"Why haven't I leave this house if I really hated you? Why didn't I kicked you out of our room even if you slept beside me? Certain things,I'm okay with it.I'm just stress and I'm really sorry.I didn't care about what you think.You can leave,if you want to..."he mumbled before leaving me.

I thought for a minute.He wouldn't change,would he? I hastily get up and decided to pack my things.To my surprise,he hugged me from behind.

"I'm begging you to please don't go,"he whispered.

"I'll be lonely..."he continued.

I turned around to face him.

"Then,are you ready to treat me as your wife?"I asked.

He nodded.Just a simple nod as a reply,made me smiled.It easily made me happy.All those nightmares could finally be gone.

"No matter how scary a monster like me could be,there's actually a soft side of me that you just didn't see.Will you forgive me?"

I smiled at his words and nodded.

"I...I...I-I love you..."he muttered.

My eyes was filled with happiness.I hugged him tightly,leaving a kiss on his cheek.He blushed at the contact.

We could start all over again.This time,I'll be happy.

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The so called pick-up line isn't really a pick-up line here.It's more like a quote? I'm not really sure but I made that up.Hope you enjoy.