never | s.w.

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I couldn't sleep.

I got out of bed, and walked into Ethan and Grayson's room.

Ethan sat up when I walked in.

"Are you okay?" he whispered.

I shook my head.

"Can I sleep in here with you guys?" I asked.

He nodded.

"Of course" he replied.

I crawled in between them.

I felt a cry coming, I held it in, but let a few tears fall.

In the small amount of light coming from the moon, Ethan saw the tears fall.

He pulled me close to his side.

"I'm so sorry Sophia" he said as I wrapped my arm around his torso.

I laid my head on his chest.

Grayson turned over and rubbed my back for a little while.

"I love you Grayson" I said as I trailed off the sleep.

"I love you Ethan" I spoke, before slowly falling to sleep.

-

I woke up in between Ethan and Grayson.

I stretched and climbed out of the bed while they stretched.

We all walked downstairs.

I heard a knock on the door, and Grayson opened it.

"She doesn't want to talk to you" I heard him say.

Sam was here.

"Please I need to see her" I heard Sam speak.

I walked around the corner, peering at Sam.

He saw me with my tear stained face.

His face went soft.

"Sophia" he spoke softly.

Grayson turned around and saw me.

I hugged him as I walked past him to the open door.

Ethan and Grayson walked back into the kitchen, giving me my privacy. I shut the door, standing on the porch.

"Sophia I-" I stopped him.

"Please don't Sam" I spoke.

He looked so hurt.

"I didn't mean anything I said last night" he said.

He grabbing at he ends of his hair.

"I was drunk and I didn't mean any of it" he repeated.

A tear fell down my face, and I could feel more coming.

"Being drunk isn't an excuse Sam" I spoke.

"I didn't know what I was saying" he said.

I looked him in the eyes.

"Drunken words are the most true Sam" I spoke.

He tugged at the ends of his hair again.

More tears fell down my face as I sat down on the bench.

"Please don't cry" Sam spoke.

I glared up at him, standing up.

"Don't cry?" I practically screamed. "How can you tell me not to cry. I was fucking in love with you Sam" I screamed back.

"Sophia I-" I yelled over him.

"Remember the night you promised me you would never hurt me" I yelled through tears.

He nodded.

"You fucking lied Sam" I spat at him, until turning to cover my eyes.

"Baby please" he grabbed my hand.

I yanked it away.

"Don't call me that" I cried.

He looked down.

I turned and walked towards the door.
"And to think. I was going to lose my virginity to you" I spit.

His face grew soft as he heard what I said.

More tears began to roll down his face.

"I'm so sorry" he said softly, barely loud enough for me to hear.

"Goodbye Sam" I said, turning to stare him in the eyes.

Tears were rolling down his cheeks.

More tears came from my eyes and I ran inside, straight up to my room.

Ethan and Grayson entered my room shortly after.

They just sat there and hugged me.

That's all I needed right now.

-

"Sorry for being so annoying" I spoke as I brushed my freshly washed hair.

"You're not annoying at all" Ethan said.

Grayson agreed.

-

I stayed at home with Grayson and Ethan for the rest of the long weekend.
When my mom got home from the minivacation, I told her everything. She comforted me, and so did Jacob and Mrs. Dolan.

"He wasn't worth it baby" Mrs. Dolan replied, rubbing my back as we hugged.

I smiled weakly.

"Thanks Auntie" I spoke.

-

We've been on break for a week. It's been week since Sam and I broke up.

I laid out my clothes for school in the morning, and hopped in my bed.