I'm more of a Book Person

An Introduction to my Life.

I am a loner.

A complete and utter loner.

I never had friends, really. I mean, sure I had the occasional person I didn't mind, but, no one who really stuck around. Not that I didn't try, because I really did. To the point where I would change who I was just to fit in with someone. But for me, being a loner was inevitable.

I think it started around grade 2, when I first started opening up to people. I realized that they didn't really care about me in the end, they just wanted a... temporary, friend. Since then, I pretty much lost trust in people. I know, I didn't have the happiest childhood in the world.

At a certain point, after so many hurt feelings, after so many failed friendships, I took comfort in books. There's just something about the setting that makes you feel at home. Instead of having real friends, I made friends with the characters. (And, in terms of imaginary friends, I was one popular girl.)

There are some perks to having imaginary friends; like, I don't have to deal with their bad side. I mean, normal, living friends are totally unpredictable. You say one wrong thing, and BOOM! They backfire completely. But with book characters, it's all good, all the time! Plus, they will never leave you. Whenever I need them, they're there. All the real friends I've had just sort of... left.

Of course, there are some challenges to being a loner. Like, I get picked on. A lot. People think just because I don't have someone to stick up for me that I'm an easy target. Wrong. I may seem like a fragile and shy girl, with not much colour, but believe me, there is a lot of personality bubbling just below the surface.

When my Mom and Dad got a divorce five years ago, all I did was stare at pages all day. I locked myself in my room and didn't come out for a week, living off stale popcorn and water from the faucet in my bathroom. (Yeah, I had my own bathroom.)

Anyway, if you're reading this book, I think a 'welcome' is in order.

So, welcome to my life of fictional characters, loneliness, random thoughts and conversations, and most if all, nonsense.

Have fun.