The world as we knew was collapsing before our eyes. Slowly without us being able to do anything to prevent it. Our free will was taken away from us. We became puppets, controlled by a higher power. All we wanted was to escape, to cut the threads th...
- What is it that you don't understand? His breath reeked of whiskey, but so did mine.
- But you have no problem getting girls, do you? he said.
- What do you mean?, then he lay down again next to me and let out an "aah".
Patiently I waited for his answer. But when I didn't get anything, I poked him in the side questioningly.
- But come on Robin, you look good, so why would you have a hard time getting girls?, he blurts out.
I didn't know what it was like to have close friends, I didn't know if it was common for them to compliment each other. All I knew was that all my blood rose to my cheeks when he said that.
- You must be so sexually frustrated, he whispered in his dark voice.
My body reacted to those words. I reacted in a way I didn't expect. The heat in my cheeks went like wildfire through certain parts of my body. The realization upset me.
- Stop it, I said dismissively, turning my back on him again. Surprised at my feelings at his words.
But he didn't give in, again that arm around me was there. But this time it wasn't content to just lie there still across my chest. As I held my breath, I felt it slide along my shirt.
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So clearly I could feel Gabriel's body pressed against me. My heart pounded as he unfolded a flap of my shirt, exposing my bare stomach.
- What are you doing? I whispered but got no response. Nor did I push him away.
When his palm slipped in under my shirt, I felt the shame as my body woke up. Was I in such a need for physical touch that I even reacted to a guy's touching me? A sound came out of my throat. It took me a while to realize that I was actually moaning quietly with pleasure. My cheeks were hot, embarrassed I pulled my shirt down to hide my exposed stomach.
- Gabriel, stop... My voice sounded desperate but not convincing.
His voice in my ear blurted out a single word "sch". I didn't want to let the truth get to me, the truth that Gabriel himself noticed when he approached my crotch.
- You're hard, he said in my ear and I wanted to sink through the ground in shame.
Then he took my hand and brought it to his own crotch and I could feel that I was not alone in the feeling. Under my palm I could feel how excited he was too.
- Touch me, he whispered in my ear.
So badly I wanted to give in to the feeling, to just fall and receive this moment. But something inside me screamed. Screamed that this wasn't right, that this wasn't what I wanted. And that voice drowned out everything else. Fiercely, I broke free, backing away from him as far as I could, feeling the sobs being pressed against my throat.
