Ego over Relations

I need you

Author's POV

Sita felt every cell in her body is tearing apart, don't know how she is in one piece right now. She needs someone to keep her intact. 'Santhu', is the only one she could think of. She rushed to his home, rang the bell impatiently, Grishma(Santhu's mom) opened the door

"Sita, what happened? You look terrible" she asked with worry holding Sita. Hari(Santhu's dad) and his parents were also in living room

"I want Santhu" Sita asked in whisper. Just then Santhu came, She ran into his arms, crying. He hugged her, patting back, made her sit in sofa, holding. Grishma got water, Santhu made her drink

"I need you ... I need my Santhu, my best friend right now, please" Sita begged. She has been distancing herself from Santhu since marriage came in between them. She need her friend back

"I'm always your friend Sita, I'm all ears, get it off your chest" Santhu said calmly

"You taught me everything in life...why didn't you teach me how to stop myself from falling in love with that as****e?" She complained in tears "Please teach me how to stop loving... I want to stop loving him, stop thinking about that as****e... take me to the time before I met him..." Everyone were shocked hearing Sita except Santhu

"It's ok Sita, I will fix everything" he said. His heart is broken knowing that the girl he has been in love with since the time he was a child, is in love with another man but he is holding himself for her

"I'm so sorry Santhu, I'm a bad friend... I don't deserve your friendship... I betrayed you... I wanted to tell you but dad made me swear on him to not tell about Ben. He blackmailed me, he said he would kill himself if I don't agree to marry you or do anything to stop this marriage. I'm selfish, broke your trust. I couldn't even think straight, my mind got stuck with Ben, all I could think was him, how much he hurt me... how much I miss him... I'm so selfish Santhu... I don't even deserve to ask your forgiveness..."

"Calm down Sita, stress is not good for baby" Sita looked at him in shock, asked "how" while everyone were more shocked

"Did you forget my skills? This afternoon you looked tensed seeing text message, I was concerned... sorry didn't think I was prying on your privacy..." he apologized

"You should slap me, push me away... why are you so nice?" She said hiccuping

"It's my fault, you were reluctant from the beginning... I should have tried to understand why you suddenly accepted... you were grounded, didn't even fight. That's not you Sita, I know you... I didn't try to find what happened to you... I was selfish, just happy that you accepted me..."

"No, not your fault... I'm an idiot...I fell in love with that as****e, trusted him, got pregnant with his child... I don't know why I fell in love with him, from the day I met him, he was so rude, insulting me at every chance, he even insulted dad... threw me out of his home and life..."

"But he loves you madly... that's why you love him too" Santhu said

"Why are you backing him?" Sita said in anger

"He is short tempered but loves you madly, you think from your side only... think what happened that day... he didn't witness what happened, when he came, your dad was holding his dad's collar and slapped. He loves and respects his dad so much. Put yourself in his shoes..."

"He didn't listen to me..."

"Yes, he should have. You both were in anger that time, couldn't have listened. I'm not supporting Ben, what he did was wrong but he doesn't deserve to loose his love for that..."

"Even today, he hurt me..." she told him what happened "I broke up with him, I hate him... I don't want to see his face ever"

"He didn't know what your parents went through, he saw only his family's suffering... based on that..." Santhu tried to pacify her but Sita interrupted "shut up! Don't ever support him, you are my friend, not his..."

Santhu knew she wouldn't listen to him now, just stayed quiet

"I'm sorry Santhu... I'm not in right state of mind..." she apologized "how do you know about Ben?" She asked. He could have known about pregnancy from text but how did he know about Ben and what happened

"Stella told at the restaurant today... The first time I met him here, I thought it was strange, the way he was looking at you, and how nervous you were around him... today at jewelry store, I noticed that he was looking at you, glaring at me. You were upset seeing him with Stella... he followed you to restroom... I was worried..." he said looking down

"You saw what happened in restroom" she asked in shock

"Sorry but I'm happy that I witnessed... you both are crazily in love with each other...Stella was there too, she took me out from there, before you noticed and called Ben"

Sita didn't know what to say

"That's why I didn't stop you when you wanted to leave alone, I knew that guy would follow you. I thought you both needed to talk...then Stella told me your love story and... their marriage facade... she is in love with Dheeraj..." Santhu told Sita

"Dheeraj?" She asked in surprise, Santhu nodded. Grishma got pomegranate juice for Sita. She felt guilt, couldn't look into Grishma's  eyes. Grishma sat next to Sita "i love you as much as I love Santhosh. Don't feel guilt, it's not your fault... I should have known something is wrong... since the time you returned from India, you were not yourself..."

"Yes Sita, don't stress yourself, we will talk to Anand and fix everything. We want your happiness..." Hari said

"No uncle, everything is over... I'm never going to see Ben..."

"You are upset, let's not talk about it now" Santhu said, knowing she wouldn't listen. Sita apologized again and again to everyone before leaving to home with Santhu