sometimes I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling
I ask myself why am I still here
I don't want to go
but I don't see the point in being here
I want to turn to alcohol even though I don't drink
because maybe that'll make me forget
or ease the lack of feeling
I can't cry, I can't laugh
I zone out like I'm cut in half
I cant get out of bed
and I don't want to
I prefer to just not exist
and become one with the darkness
I try to hang on
but for what
it isn't for me
so I may as well cut
- moonie
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BINABASA MO ANG
Stagnant Soars - poetry
Poetrya collection of little poems, a deep dive into healing, heartbreak and growth.