its weird
not being in the shadows of my own mind
I still have horrible tendencies and often fall back into old mind sickening habits
but for the most part, I am okay
as odd as it sounds to say out loud
genuinely
i am okay
sometimes I miss that dark feeling
the one I used to find comfort in
when I would sob on the bathroom floor with heavy breaths waiting for the emotions to go away
but instead they crept up my neck and took away my ability to exist
i miss forcing myself to find comfort in my own skin
hugging my body and telling myself to breathe
repeatedly reassuring that I'm okay even though I know that I am not
being too scared to reach out
muffling my sadness
and suppressing every ounce of emotion shown
i went through it alone and can only really thank myself for getting through it
i know I had some help along the way
but at the end of the day, im still here because of me
im no longer in the dark
and I may miss it
but it is nice to finally see me again
- moonie
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Stagnant Soars - poetry
Poetrya collection of little poems, a deep dive into healing, heartbreak and growth.