Start Over

Fifty-One

When Megan turned eighteen she released her first song talking about sex and it had the public in shambles. They've always seen Megan and destiny's child as the "innocent girls" because we all came out at the same time and we were signed to the same label.

The song was titled "pillow princess" and it was basically her calling me a bottom and submissive in many ways. One of the lines is literally calling me a bottom like she literally said "my bitch a bottom, gave her head in the limousine" then there was some more outlandish shit after that, I find it hilarious looking back at it.

She didn't specifically say that it was about me but, everyone knew we were together at that time so it didn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out.

"Can I ask you to do something...you can always say no to me so don't feel pressured to do anything you don't want to do." She reassures me

"I'd do anything for you. What is it baby?" I ask while resting my feet on her lap

"This is going to sound so crazy." She replies before hiding her face with her palms

She's embarrassed to ask me something? It cannot be that bad. We've done damn near everything we could possibly do together.

"Ask baby." I reply while rubbing my foot up and down her inner thigh

"Can you moan on this track for me?" She asks making me bust out laughing

"Like for the background?" I ask before pushing my hair out of my face

"Yes, if you don't want to I can just have another girl do it, it's alright baby." She tells me

My eyes widen. Another girl? Moaning for Megan? Hell no.

"Another girl? Absolutely not, I'll do it." I say before standing up

"Are you sure? I'm serious Bey, you don't have to baby." She tells me

"I know, but I want to." I reply

I've moaned on songs before but it's only been little parts. I slowly walk into the booth. I walk towards the microphone then I put the headphones on.

"So do I just...moan?" I ask making Megan laugh loudly

"Wait. I have to press record." She says between laughter

I watch as she clicks a button then I watch the little light on the microphone turn blue. That's how I know the microphone is on. This is so awkward I'm not used to moaning into a microphone like this.

"Do I just.. go?" I ask as I feel my face heat up

"You don't have to do this bey." She replies while chuckling softly

"How about next time we have sex you just record me moaning and put it into the song like that because this is just awkward, I don't know how to fake an orgasm." I reply before laughing loudly

"That sounds like a better idea, actually." She says as I take off the headphones

I exit the booth then I walk back into the main studio. I sit down on Megan's lap, and I wrap my arm around the back of her neck while resting my feet on the side of sofa.