"i hate you." she wrote.

☆ chapter 11

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"i hate you." she wrote.

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This section is in Aiden's perspective.

Something has been bothering me lately. It's the secret Noah and Ray have. What is it? I don't know. Noah and Ray have been so much more distant after that day Ray saw me and Ryu hiding beside the school. I know Ray was jealous, it was obvious. It's also obvious he has feelings for Ryu. Ray is my good friend, but I love Ryu. I sigh, I'm already moving out of the topic. I look at Ray.
       Noah and Ray are still good friends, except.. It's so awkward between them now. I need to know what it is. Why is it so bad? Does it involve Ryu? That wouldn't make so much sense because Noah is also not so happy about it. Does it involve Naomi then? They have been dating for like 2 years.. No, maybe not. Does Noah like Naomi? Hell no! I just said that he likes Ryu. It's obvious he likes Ryu though. Maybe it involves.. me?
That's it!
That's why they aren't telling me. Though, it did seem as if Noah wanted to tell me. Well no kidding, Noah has been my best friend for more than 10 years. I sigh again. I'll figure out one day.

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Ryu's at my house this time. She never has came to my house. My mom told me to clean my room because my girlfriend is coming. How does she know we're dating?! Maybe Ryu's mom. Not sure, doesn't really matter. Me and Ryu both don't want much people knowing. So far only 3. Only?! That's so--

"Aiden! Come downstairs!"

"Coming!!"

I think she's here. I run downstairs, seeing Ryu and her mom. Obviously her dad wouldn't come, my dad's not here either right now.

"Hi!!"

"Hey! Let's go to my room."

I also wave to Ryu's mom before going up. I grab onto her hand. We go upstairs.

"This one is my room."

"Your house is so big!"

She says as we walk in.

"Not really, only downstairs. My room is kinda small. My mom told me I don't need a such big room when we moved in."

Ryu giggles.

"Your room is a mess."

"Yeah.. sorry.. I tried cleaning it a bit, but it was really hard.."

She sits on my bed.

"No, it's fine. You're also like super plain. Only one figure? Really?"

"Hey! I don't watch or play much games."

She looks at my Haikyuu!! figure. I blush a bit.

"I also really like Hinata."

She relates.

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She's laying on my shoulder, on my bed! Omg. So much is happening in my head. I love her so much. I cuddle back onto her.

"Do you know why Ray and Noah are so quiet around each other now?"

I'm surprised she even asked.

"No, I don't get it. They wont tell me. Maybe it's about me."

She looks at me.

"They're good friends with you, no way."

"Noah seemed like he wanted to tell me, Ray didn't want it. What if it's about you?"

"I can ask Naomi."

"I doubt she would know, it's Ray's secret after all."

She look down.

"I'm too curious! I wanna know!"

"Maybe it's good if we don't know. Maybe thats why he's not telling us."

She looks back up at me.

"I'm still curious."

"You're literally so cute."

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This section is in Ray's perspective.

He knows there's a secret. Of course he does. Shit. What do I do? He's going to eventually find out. After all.. It was an accident. God, I can't think. Should I just tell him? That would lead to more problems. I grip onto my pillow and hug it harder. I don't have a girlfriend to vent to. Noah already is spacing away from me. My life is falling apart. It's all going down. The incident, Ryu and then Noah.. I love Ryu-- I..
        I tear up a bit, tears drop onto my pillow. Nono, I shouldn't be crying. It's just a girl.. No! Girls are.. I love her.. You idiot! Stop crying. Move on!! My thoughts are scattered everywhere. I can't even think properly. Please Noah.. Don't tell anyone.. Not even Naomi.. I cry even more. Tears soak into the pillow. I don't want to even try fixing this, the consequences.. It's going to be even worse. Life will just repeat itself, problem over problem. Heartbreak and heartbreak. I sigh, wiping my tears. Why does Aiden always get everything I want.. I sound like a spoiled person saying that.
No! Stay strong! I'm such an idiot.. Whatever.

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It's already the next day, another useless day of this useless life passes by. I'm just causing trouble for people at this point. School.. Just a waste of time sometimes. If I pass grade 8 there's basically nothing else I need to learn other than living and jobs. The curriculums just repe-- Aiden pulls my hand, he pulls me to the side of the school. The same place where Ryu and Aiden were.. Never mind.

"Aiden?"

"Tell me. Tell me everything. Spill."

"What?"

"You know what i'm talking about! Don't do this shit with me! You and Noah are already spacing apart!"

I feel like crying. I can't. I was holding my breath the whole time, I can't breathe. Not today. I can't tell you Aiden. I'm sorry. I look away.

"Aiden, it's for your own good, and mine."

"No! I don't believe it! It's about me or Ryu isn't it?!"

"P-partly.."

"I know you still love Ryu! I.. I'm sorry."

"Wait what? Why are you sorry?"

"You... You idiot.. I know you loved her since like we came to high school.. I'm sorry for falling for her.."

"Don't be, you guys seem like you 2 are made for each other. Enemies to lovers, right?"

I try my best to smile, it feels like i'm about to fall to the ground and start crying, screaming. Why is love so cruel?

"Don't try so hard."

"Aiden--"

He hugs me. Why.. Why is he hugging me? I hug him back.

"It's stupid to do this next to the school, basically hiding. But just cry if you want. Kneel down as well if you want."

Why is he so nice.. I kneel down onto the ground and cry on his shoulder.

"I-i'm sorry for this.."

"Ray. Don't be sorry, please. Just.. just let it out."

He hugs me once again.

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I still didn't tell him my secret. I think he was thinking that it would be too much to let go in one day. I'm glad he thought that. I couldn't even if he asked, even if it's another day.
It would ruin our friendship.

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